from one who has been in your shoes - loving hugs!

Hang in there, it will be easier some days , worse on other days (and nights). I took to silently screaming at the disease as if it was a third person in my home."Damn you dementia! I hate you!" Sundowning and agression hurt my very soul. While my mind knew it wasn't from them, my core was sometimes cut to it's quick.

I am plesed to hear the new med is helping. Being the caregiver and also haing health problems of yourown is no picnic.

In 2005 I had a hearing in a foreclosure. I had a hard time talking because I still had tetanus, having been unable to get the antibiotic to kill the bacteria... I was too poor. Anyway, at the hearing I was having a hard time following things and talking, and although I'd asked for accommodation of my disability, I have some brain injury, the judge said that I probably would get worse and not better, giving me the impression he viewed me as having Alzheimer's.

Now, I'm lucky I had the tetanus and not much money because in lieu of the "proper" treatment I had a LOT of B12 shots, and my handwriting today is much different than it was then, as if my pain level -- I used to have horrendous pain from peripheral neuropathy. My thinking is better, but it's no where near what it was.

I was much more aggressive and mean while I had the worst memory problems. I think that comes in part from not being able to express oneself. I still swear a lot more than I used to, because I didn't use to swear at all.

Okay, so the fact is that methylcobalamin regenerates nerves. It works quite well, I would say from my experience, but it doesn't restore total use. I mean, after being without the full function of my brain for several years, I can't use what brain matter I appear to have recovered the way I did before I lost it, I appear to have to relearn how to use it, as if I were a child again.

Not in everything, but a lot of things.

In terms of you and the drain it is to give care for so long, that is an incredible stress on your body, as you know and have already commented.

I strongly urge you to check out a list of symptoms of low B12 and if you have some, then get methylcobalamin in the lozenge form and begin using it.

I use a LOT of methylcobalamin, about as much as having a B12 shot a day, and it was using that amount that restored so much of what I had lost and relieved so much pain.

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