HI Billie, I can understand you not wanting to get anymore implants.
I just feel so bad for you as I know to well whatlit's like not to be able to control your pain.
I have been on a very long list of meds and now am on methadone, baclofen, cymbalta for pain and have to say that this is by far the best combo i have had thus far..
Hugs and much Love, Linda

I'm on Cymbalta,but doc wants me on Neurontin. I just don't want it as I am always hungry and will gain up to 30 pounds. His nurse say's thats not true, but she should see me now that I have took it back off. I'm not about to go there because they put the implant lead up my spine.
Sometime I am worse than if i took nothing.
I wish I wasn't so sentive to pain meds, but I am, for some reason. They either don't work or they make me sick with side efects. I alway dread the fact that ,of what a new one will do. I usually take Hydrocodone. It is not a miracle drug for me either.
Take care and have a wonderful day.
Billie

{{{{{Dear Billie}}}}}}
How are you feeling today my friend??
I hope the rain has stopped where your at.
I can feel when it is coming in my bones as well...
I used to love to have a few rainy days.Not anymore!!!
You are right ,i dont imagine any of us will escape having pain at one point or another in this life.
I try to keep my mind off of it as much as possible!
Somedays it's impossible.....Lately i have been doing crossword puzzles..
Since i have to lay so much thats just what i have found to keep me busy.


What a wonderful gift you will be giving when you work for hospice!!
I am sure that right now with everything you are going through your probably "are" having second thoughts.
Like you said.If it's what you feel you have been called to do..It wont happen until the timing is right "for you"...
Only someone that has dealt with such trials and life changing things can help someone else cope.
I dont know your whole story -but i think i have heard enough to know that you would go above and beyond in helping others billie!!
Those people in need would be blessed to have you at their side.
I am not just saying those words.I really mean it!!!

When the time is right everything will fall into place for you.
I know you want it all to be like yesterday!!!
Hopefully you will find a house soon and all this will be over for you..
I always tell myself-everything happens for a reason.I may not like it's timing-but i do believe that way...
You take care and i'll be checkin in on you again soon!
{{{{hugz}}}}
~Kell~

Kell, I sure hope things fall into place soon. I am feeling better tonight and want things to be ok.Sometime life gives you somthing unspeasant to handle tho. I only wish I could of had family to count on.I have some but I mean a man that can handle things.WE only have one near my age and he treats me bad. If I ever want something fixed I do know, not to count on him. My husband would have stopped and offered to help, but not him, Isn't it a shame a family member can't offer no help for me I get moved.

Yes I am going to give help to hospicse when I get head and know what to do and where. I don't have a degree so, I expected the work with running, or bady sitting the older folks. I don't mind tho, since it has been a while since
I have done at a hopital, as an aid. Some of it never leaves you tho. just feel the need to do this at this time.

Well its bedtime and I better go. I have to get up early Sunday morning.
BC

Sorry to hear about your surgery after surgery. I know how hard it is to bounce back. I am not familiar with your type of pain problem, but I feel for you. Good luck.

sally