If you still need advice I have been in chronic pain for 32 yrs just ask.

After more than 20 years of severe pain, I have taken enough meds to choke a horse. While the never-ending pain drags depression around behind it, taking enough medication to knock you out makes you wonder why you were ever born!!! I just went through that. It wasn't until I got angry since I have no life (except in my dreams) that I began tossing some of the pills away...with the doc's help...keeping the most necessary ones to survive the pain. Guess I'll get back to the depression from pain when I get over being angry. It's just a merry-go-round.

sally

Just saw this thread bumped up and wanted to post and thank everyone for the help and support. Over the past few months I have done well and had a positive attitude and was cheerful. But with the cold I am feeling worse and I now am depressed and the depression is just worsening.

I feel so alone and deserted. I live in my room for the most part. I have no life, I do next to nothing and I am always crying. I feel like I just lay in bed and rot. All I know is pain, I can barely walk or do anything. What is there to live for?! I mean, I am not suicidal at all, it is just the pain wearing on me. I feel lifeless.

By the way, yes- I did tell the friend what I am going through. She apologized profusely and we are even better friends at this time.

I have been crying just trying to write this, it is just so difficult to live anymore. I have been trying to go on with life and was doing fairly well with it, but it is now a different story.

Thanks for listening.

i jst had scs implanted lastweek!

Thanks, Peter,

I did go on a long 10 day trip to the beach last summer and it was with my sisters and I was treated exactly the same way! Never again, next time I go anywhere it will be by plane and a rental car when I get there!

I thought a lot about how to answer this very good question, but was unable to really think it through. I just take each day and night as it comes, and weave my way through.
Found this good advice though.
http://briangrady.wordpress.com/2008...in-or-illness/