I had completely forgotten that, I wonder like you if it was the beginning of a compression fracture? I guess I'll never know for sure, it could even be the time I fell in the front yard last year in April and broke my hand/ finger and 2 ribs. Had also forgotten about that as well. And I had another fall in the laundry one time last year also. So yes maybe there a combined instances that have lead to it and the SCS unit when working was masking it. As you know since November I've being saying it's not working so that would fit with a reasonable time line, although compression fractures usually take 3 to 6 months to heal. Maybe it's was even then violent vomiting. So many to wonder over, and just not worth it, have to accept it's happened and trust the epidural on a Friday will provide some relief xxx

Keeping me overnight night again, same heart complications as last time in 2016. So, that is 3 AV blocks in the last 2 years, a cardiac arrest in 2012 and a heart arrest in 1966. I'm not happy, not happy at all. Wish people would fricking listen to me and stop brushing me off as a hysteric. Luckily the anaesthetist this time is the same one as at Hollywood last year in 2016 and remembers me.

Now I've told work I'm in hospital having a reasonablly serious procedure today Friday 17th February and told them not to bother me AT ALL. one of the AM' has phoned me twice and emailed 3 times over something he could have picked up the phone and checked with our ES payroll himself, or if he actually read his emails where I've provided him with the info earlier this week of what he is today chasing.

I've just seen an additional left phone message from our HR consultant who has also phoned at 10.17am on behalf of another AM asking if I have a copy of a document. This would be the document I emailed that AM yesterday afternoon before I left the office making sure everything is up to date and there being no need for me to be disturbed today, or at over the weekend before next Monday. People are just too lazy to check for anything themselves, phone Pam first, she'll help. I'm super disappointed. I've forwarded the email I sent yesterday to the AM & HR. I'm sure they will be a little red faced.

I've also said as much to the other AM who has phoned & emailed me so now there is a record of it as well. You know had he contacted payroll in the ES when he first tried phoning me this morning they will have been there & given him the answer as I had also contacted them, now due to time difference, they have gone home, so I've told him to speak with them next week. I have additionally provided him with a screenshot of the message I sent him, payroll and his store manager (SM) on Tuesday. I've not given him a nicely nice rely today, it's short sharp & terse. Do you think he will get I'm annoyed. I HOPE SO.

I have 4 AM's the 2 female AMS have sent messages good luck, don't work, stay safe. I've heard nothing from the men!

My machine is beeping, my BP is 87 over 60 my stats are 11 & my heart beat seems to showing an erratic pattern, better go xxx

They also aren't giving me any pain relief, my PM has left & didn't realise I had the heart complication and staying in and has nothing charted for me. They've given me 2 panadol

Pam,

Hope you are home and resting today. Are you under the care of a cardiologist???

Gerry

I'm home, I forgot to add my stats dropped so low they ended up putting me on oxygen & I was connected to the heart monitor all night. I was put in the Observation Ward which is connected to the nurses station, it's like PCU. The embarrassing thing is I had to share with a male, a very nice man who it turns out we knew each other as children, went to the same school and still know many of the same people. Anyhow what's embarrassing is with the epidural it affects bladder control. At 3am I awoke and knew I needed to go, leapt out of bed but because I was connected with a drip, heart monitor and oxygen by the time I managed to disconnect everything the bladder had begun to flow. So there I am stood frantically trying to disconnect, stuffing the hospital nightie between my legs along with towels they have hanging on the bedside table. And of course I crying. The male patient trying hard to pretend he is not aware of the embarrassing situation occurring. The nurse came, helped me, but it was too late. She kindly helped me wash, got me a new nightie and gave the floor a quick wipe. The good news was I didn't wet the bed as I'd managed to get out in time.

The bad news is the problem is still occurring & yesterday afternoon here at home I leapt from the couch but didn't make it in time so I then had to mop the floor from the living room to the toilet. Then last night about 2am same thing again, leapt out of bed & as soon as I stood it just started to flow, by the time I got to the toilet it had flowed down my legs and to the floor, so at 2am there I am again up with the mop & bucket washing the floor, having yet another shower and in general hating myself. I don't think the epidural has worked as well as they had hoped, I've got the same stabbing sensation in my upper back only it's not as bad as it was. It keeps coming in waves and I would say the pain score at present is about a 5. Yesterday I thought it seemed to be working, maybe having had to mop the floor twice has exacerbated it??

I didn't know where to go from here, will go see my GP this week and request she refer me to a cardiologist. I'm so over everything right now. DB made me breakfast then put himself back to bed, he made no effort to help me yesterday clean up nor again last night. I got up to find the kennels hadn't been tended to so I did them along with the cat run, did a load of washing, emptied the dishwasher, tended to the 2 older dogs injuries (cuts that flies won't leave and we can't afford for them to become fly blown). I'm beyond empty, I can't see the point in anything anymore, I'd rather he did the dogs than make me a cup of tea and crumpet. It's like the old days when he was drunk and didn't get up, so I got up and took care of everything so the pub could open, even on occasion opening and running it until he put in an appearance. Drink is no longer the excuse, he doesn't drink. Maybe he's just bone idle lazy. He tells me his psych has said it's ok to lie in bed, I'm sure she doesn't mean all day long, eat every meal in there, but because she has said it's ok I'm mean if I say anything.

Feeling very very sad, the pain has returned & nothing has changed.

Pam, What's with the bladder control??? The situation in the hospital with a male patient and your accident had to be very embarrassing. Please see if you can go to a Uro gynecologist (sp?) who specializing in incontenence issues as well as female gynecological issues.

I had issues with my bladder dropping about 7 years and had to get a Cystocele to raise the bladder in a sling. It still is in the sling. I believe it came down because of all my forcing form opioid med constipation.

I just wish I had known about Urogynecologist (Urogyny). I went to my husband's Urologist who is a male and should have referred me to a Urogyny but instead he did the surgery. Put extra mesh, etc., problems....

Also when you have a Cystocele, you need to have a Rectocele done at the same time.....that is to suture the bowel from dropping afterwards which; as the Urogyny told me when he did the Rectocele said It is a fact that when a Cystocele is done; the bowel will drop; no if and or but....it will and it did within 2 months requiring a second surgery. By this time tho, I was aware not to have the Urologist touch me again I learned the hard way. The Urogyny also cares for incontinence patients.

You have so much going on. You might mention to DB that maybe you need to get a smaller place without all the animals because it is getting too difficult to maintain (especially without more help on his's part).

I'm afraid he got accustomed to your soothing and handling everything; especially early on during his recovery. I had mentioned previously, while our husbands may be very good men; the compassion for a wife that has physical issues often appears to be detached if any mention is made not feeling well or a difficult painful day.

It has to be a "downer" that you have gone thru so much and nothing has changed as far as the pain is concerned.

Gerry

Hi Gerry, the bladder problem is a common occurrence after epidural procedures unfortunately. It's also a very well kept secret!! The epidural as we know numbs the muscles so we don't feel pain, it also works on the bladder sphincter muscle. I've encountered it previously only not to this degree, it will be due to me having had 3 epidurals within 10 weeks. It takes bladder training to get it back to normal and luckily I know what to do. I'm lucky in that I'm getting the sensation I need to go so saving further embarrassment from wet couches or beds. It's the sphincter muscle that's affected, but, just to be careful I will follow up on the bladder with a specialist as I was told back in 2001 when I had the first bowel resection I will have difficulty with my bladder in the future. I'm worried you say not to see a urologist. Perhaps I should see a general surgeon instead. My mum saw a urologist some 15 years ago and had some sort of bladder surgery, she ended up with leakage for months and still has "accidents" ... have enough going on without having to deal with that as well.

Pam, The Uro Gynecologist is a Urologist and a Gynecologist so he/she is able to handle female issues with a specialty in bladder. The Urologist was a surgeon; but just did not seem to be able to handle the female anatomy. Again, I hope you can locate the Urologist/gynecologist.

If thinking of going to a regular surgeon; then a Urologist would be probably have about the same issues. Within a little of a week of the Cystocele surgery by the Urologist, my legs/feet started swelling, I had developed Edema and Stasis Dermatitis. I have been on water pill called Spironolactone daily for the past 7 years. When I went to the Uro/gyny who later did the Rectocele, he told me (as well as 2 previous progeny's that he should never had put the mesh in. There are issues with the internal area/vaginal using this material reported by the FDA.

I was concerned about you having so many of these epidurals/root steroids. That really is quite a lot to deal with.

Take care my dear friend.


Gerry