Dear MrsD-I cried when I saw the page of Stargazers,the I cried some more when I saw that you took the time to make me an avatar!!!!!!! Such a sweet thing for you to do! As soon as my husband is on days off, he is going to set it up for me, so I can use it!! Thanks again!!

I'm just now reading this thread..and my heart aches for you prairiemary.

((((((Mary)))))))

I was able to add the avatar that mrsD made for you

DEAREST CHEMAR! I have been leaving messages with my nt friends,trying to find out who did this for me!! How can I ever,ever thank you? The nicest gift I could ever wish for,a stargazer for my Amy! Thanks,thanks,thanks!!Does mrsD know you did this for me,from the lilly she sent to me? I am sure she will me happy that you did it! I am not yet smart enough to do things like that on my computer,but I will keep learning.Thanks again!

I can totally relate. September 14th was the 9th anniversary of our daughter's death, she was 16 and was taking a shower when she collapsed and died instantly. We still don't know why. My husband also planted stargazer lilies and we consider them to be Courtney's flower.
My son is getting married in November and I'm making the wedding flowers. I'm adding a silk stargazer into each bouquet.

I am soo sorry that you lost your daughter-I know how you feel. I always wonder,is it easier when you have the time to say goodbye,or is it easier all of a sudden,but have decided both ways are awful.Has your husband been by your side thru your grief,and has it affected your marraige somehow? The stargazer connection is so ironic! I am sure that when you are making the wedding flowers,you will have tears,but I think that is such a special way to include your daughter in your son's special day! Do you have other children?I have 2 other daughters,and now have 2 grandsons,but it does not take away the pain of loosing my Amy.

PrairieMary, Yes, my husband has been with me ever since Courtney's death. Our grief has brought us closer, we just celebrated our 30th anniversary and Courtney has been gone for 9 years now. It's so hard to believe that she's been gone that long. Yes, I agree... I will be crying the whole time I'm making the flowers, and as I watch the bride walk down the aisle.
Courtney and Chris (my son) were my only children. I lost four other babies due to miscarriages. You're right, having other children doesn't take the pain away. And sometimes it kind of makes it worse because you remember what you are missing. The family is incomplete.

Hugs to your PrairieMary... we can so relate to what each other is feeling.

Pairiemary,
I wish you were close by to hold and cry with you.
How you shared and brought to us the love in your heart and missing your daughter has been powerful.
It had to be so difficult not having your husband to help you emotionally and physically.

I had my older son and dil to help, but De's father did little but aggrivate and be nasty? I never could understand that?

I try to be strong, but ache to hold her so bad, you know that feeling.
I could not go to the grave side, I could not hold it together saying good bye, the last moments to see my childs face.

Hold her hand, wrap a necklace in her fingers that matched one I would wear myself. put her teddy next to her, pictures of our last trip, the kids, and kissed her goodbye.

I brought all my De's roses, tall grass, lilac's and flowering bushes she had up the house and planted them. I have her three kitties that were her babies too. I wonder if they feel her, like I do at times.....

Some days I swear they feel me missing her, like the last two days. they crawl up on my lap as soon as I sit. It has been one or the other laying on my lap, chest, Dehliah Jones touching my cheek with a paw..Samson head butting my chin, Scarlet Begoania across the back of my recliner.

Cherish your memories for those we never will lose, Share your memories and keep them close to your heart,
Hugs and love
di

I send you hugssss and more hugssss

I lost a daughter, and no matter which way it happens it is hard! My baby girl was inside me... not a miscarriage.. but full term pregnancy and she stopped kicking.... we grieved together hubby and I as I labored for 9 hours to deliver her. she was precious... I have five other children but yes nothing or noone replaces the loss....

hugsss we just lost our oldest sister to cancer, last October... and I have been grieving htat the past few weeks....anniversaries are tough...

I have tons of those flowers in my garden they are so very pretty, as I am sure your daughter was too! hugsssss,sarah

((prairiemary)) I'm so very sorry for your loss.