I just wanted people to know I have came threw most of my grief and I am doing fine now. Yes. I do miss my husband, but I wouldn't want him here and suffering like he was at the end. God has helped threw each step of the way. I am one of the lucky ones that don't have to worry over money, as we had that all planned ahead of time. I have everything paid for, including my funeral. There was a time I wouldn't have done all this, but with God guiding me each step gets easier.

I love my home now, and have made a new life for myself, dog and two cats. I try to not put anything off that I can do today. I still am not to close to the family, as they are busy, but I have made new friends. I also have found a new hobby that I just love. I enjoy collecting dolls of all kinds. I have new ones, but also enjoy going to Goodwill and hunting some that need fixing up. So I do keep busy. I saw my doctor last Monday and got a clean bill of health. He says I am going great! After I got over Broncitis last winter I have been well. My church has been their fir me to.

All I can say to others is, to find a hobby, a pet and if you can reach out in faith confess a healing of your mind, body and spirit. You will soon bring it all to pass.
May God Bless You,
Billie

billie....
so happy to read that you are doing well...keeping busy is one of the greatest diversions..keep it up...wishing you a peaceful night...linda

I pray for you often, and hope your doing better. I'm so glad you are playing the word game with us on the weight support forum. It is good to keep your mind busy. Are you back to work? I know it will be hard, but I think it would be good for you to get out also.

My friend Gaye, is flying up for a visit in June. We have never meet, but have wote each other almost daily. Now we call each other on the cell phone about every other day. It is so nice to be able to finally meet her. She will be the first, I have ever meet on the computer. We meet over on neurophy forum about 3 years ago, just something just clicked. We have been friends ever since. She lives in Georgia and I live in Indiana. I am looking forward to our reuion.

Everything seems to be falling into place for me Linda. I do hope things come together for you too.

Wishing you the best! Billie

hey billie.... thanks for thinking about me also...unfort. things are not any better..i am trying but nothing seems to help...except postiing and meeting such great people here...don't think i would still be here if it was not for neuro-talk... i do try to stay busy..but do not have the strength to do much. i have been having panic attacks lately every time i try to leave the house..very dissappointed in myself for letting all the pain winning..i know the depression will take a very long time to ease...but all the physical pain has made me question any task i want to take on...showers are very painful..and baths take to long to clean the tub,fill it and then trying to get in and out is not easy..driving is scarey and when i go food-shopping i have to get home fast or chances are too great that i will have the intense headaches,light-headness,tingling sensations and my lips seem to go numb...how do i know when it is too much??? neveer was before..now i am totally useless for over 2days.... missing david has not gotten any easier...either has trying to remember all the good times and all the times that we healed each other's pains and sorrows ..he will be the only child that i will get to raise as my own..i am very wary now about gettiing attached to anyone or anything..stupid i know..but am so tired of losing all that i love...trying to put some bricks in the wall to not let others in(selfish too) but...i am still trying...and am trying hard to keep my sense of humor...love the word games..not much thinking..just the first word that pops into my head...i am amazed that they actually make any sense....but it is keeping my brain active so they don't start leaking out my ears....keep staying on the strong path....gives me some hope...one day...maybe???

i have met one person from here and it was amazinig..now i have learned of another who lives in my area and will hopefully get to meet her too...
have a peaceful night..will try to be in a more positive mood tomorrow... thanks again for caring....