Hi Debi,

I'd also like to thank you for sharing so openly.

I am very sorry for your loss.

I cannot imagine losing my DH, he is also my very best friend.

Your highest self, your inner wisdom, will direct you in ways you will find most healing. Simply listen to your inner direction.

May you and your family feel surrounded by Love.



DejaVu

Debi,

My heart to yours.

Jon

I read your post of your husband's passing only a short while ago.
Thank you for sharing.

I just finished sending a PM to you.

You are such a "dear Lady". I feel as tho I personally have known you and your family during the past couple of years thru post and PM's.

Love & Prayers are with all of you.


Gerry

Thank you all for your kindness and prayers. I'm going to need all of you in the coming months.

Wed morning we started picking up around the house. Didn't have to since the ambulance came because we did everything at Christina's. My dad had previously knocked down the wall between the living room and dining room so it is one HUGE room......more than enough space to accommodate this extra large family and friends.

I walked around with a garbage crying and picking up. Christina and Jonathan were here with me and so sweet.

The pain in my hands and feet wake me when I sleep.

We still live in such a small town......our PCP and prior nurse pract came to see all of us at the funeral home. Such awesome people and so caring.

My son is in law enforcement and knows a lot of lawyers...some for good reasons and some for bad
One has told him when I get ready to probate the Will to bring it to him and he'll do it and explain everything to us.

All the stuff that needs to be done is just crazy overwhelming. Not sure how I'm going to do going around to all those places with Luke. We will probably have to break it up into multiple days or I won't be able to walk and I absolutely hate to use the wheelchair.

I know I'm just rambling out thoughts but that's what I need to do right now and I know you will all understand that.

I just sit in the dining room and stare at the wall in front of me. Thank goodness the kids are in and out all day long.

My son signed his divorce papers today. So heartbreaking for him to lose his dad and wife at the same time.

We are all going to Florida sometime soon with Bubba's ashes. Christina says he gets to ride 'shotgun'.......we've had some light moments filled with laughter. Bubba was a funny man and loved to make people laugh.

It's so quiet......he was always calling my name when I left the room. I know it was because he didn't want to be alone. I think somehow he knew this was coming and that was why he was able to tell me so many things he wished he'd told me all through our years together.

Please hug your spouse, girlfriend/boyfriend or whatever and tell them you love them. Even if life is hard and you're not always happy with each other. Just do it here and there for me.

Debi

Debi

I wish I could tell you that it gets easier......but I will tell you this. And it's something I never thought I'd agree with. TIME will ease things.

First time I heard this I thought "Time is my biggest enemy right now!"

And it will seem that way. Every day seemed endless. There were times the pain of the loss seemed more than I could bear. I didn't want to be alone but when people were around I wanted to run. It seemed to magnify the fact that my husband wasn't there.

But it's something you'll realize in hindsight. You're so very early in the grief process now but as time passes you'll realize that you had more good days than bad. The happy memories will make you smile instead of cry.

Your kids will be lifelines for you. They need you and you need them.

My heart goes out to you, Debi, because I know exactly what you're going through. Hang in there......

Thanks for sharing with us. Please keep posting when you are physically and emotionally capable.

Debi,

Thank you for sharing your heartbreaking but beautiful story. So much Love there.

I know you must be exhausted. You and your family have been through so much this year. What a blessing that you have each through this difficult time.

I am holding you in my heart and sending prayers for peace and wellness and for strength for the journey. You truly aren't alone with family so near and everyone here hurting for you.

I hope you make that beach trip. Make two. One now and one sometime in the future when the dust settles. Let the majestic oceans God gave us bring you healing and a place to wash away some of the grief. Sending hugs and healing love,

Dear Littlepaw,

Well said. My sentiments, too.