Kitty wrote: I had no idea anyone else had that feeling. Thanks for sharing that with us. I, too, felt that way with the loss of a loved one and thought I was all alone in feeling that way. How could the world go on, my loved one was no longer here. It made me a bit angry as it felt like my loved one meant so little to others that they just picked up where they left off? I felt frozen in time.

This may not be the proper time or place for me to make this post as it is more about ME than about our dear friend Debi and her loss, but it might be nice if she experiences those feelings, it may help her to know that she is not alone.

Absolutely!! "Frozen in time" is an excellent analogy. It helped me to know that I wasn't alone with the feelings that felt so strange to me then. I only hope Debi feels our presence and love right now. Nobody can really relate to something like this unless they've been there. Seems like there are a lot of folks here that have walked that walk. It's not a walk you want to take alone.

Debi, I hope you're having an easier day today.

As you mentioned; this may help Debi know she is not alone should those feelings arise.
I remember all too well those feelings.




Gerry

I didn't start out thinking it was going to be any different from past days but it has turned out to be a good day. Luke has been here most of the day hanging out. I called and talked to the people at our bank but didn't go to SS Office. Christina just wasn't up to it.

John called from the funeral home and he had received Bubba's ashes and his death certificates. Luke and I met Christina and Jonathan over there to pick them up. I didn't cry at all. It was actually comforting to see that beautiful silver urn with his name engraved on it. Is that weird ?

I washed both dogs today, Angus and Charlie and then scrubbed the bathtub out.....it has not been scrubbed in months....how awful that I'm revealing that to all of you....lol

Luke took me thru the drive thru at the bank and the drug store and then we picked up a few necessary items at the local dollar store. Went by and picked up Lane from after school program and are now here at home.

I have been in this house for months and months and it was so good to get out in the daylight. Even though I'm tired I really want to take Evan and Lane out to dinner with Christina. Luke won't go as he still looks for time to be by himself.

Today is the time for my new patch and I'm feeling it. Took my oxycodone at 2but my left leg and foot are just killing me. Wasn't sure I'd make it through the dollar store but I did.

Thanks for everything my friends. I'm so glad I have this place to come to and yes I do feel your love and prayers for me and my family like a familiar friend. Means the world to me that y'all care so much. I hope to be much more active on this board than I have been in the past. Having to take care of Bubba really has showed me that I can push myself farther than I thought I could. And that's a good feeling for me.

If anyone can think of anything I see to be missing in all of this or have concerns about something I write please ask. I'm a wide open person who has no secrets from anyone....one of the things Bubba didn't like about me....lol

Debi from Georgia

No Debi....it is not weird at all. I understand completely how it would be comforting.

Am going to bed and putting you in my prayers, and your Mother as well.
(Poor dear, broken ribs...what is it about that generation...you said her pain tolerance is incredible...I found that to be true of both my parents).

Its funny, I feel the need to check in every night to see how you are doing so
I am so glad you are writing to all of us everyday and updating us on how your day has been.

You have been remarkably strong and I am amazed at all you are accomplishing.
Please be careful not to push too much.
Again, thanks for sharing.
Fondly,
D.

Debi,

I am honoured to be a small part of your Support Structure as you Journal the day's events and what you are having to deal with.

All of us here reading your words, I'm sure, are warmed by the knowledge that you are dealing with the mundane and the additional family issues with fortitude.

You, and your family are in my thoughts and prayers daily.

Dave.

The first few weeks are so busy with so much to do. People always seem to be nearby. Things that hadn't gotten done; now are doing all these things. It's like so much hasn't really settled in. I would imagine you are surprised how well you are really handling all of this. You are quite a lady to be admired.

I couldn't help getting a smile on my face when you mentioned being so open with "no secrets" was one of the things Bubba didn't like. You pretty much described myself....an "open book" with often too much information; but that's who I am and I believe we share the "no secrets" as well.

Debi, you give those of us at NT quite a feeling of togetherness. It's hard to explain; but it is so meaningful. You are very "special".


Gerry