I don't know why I keep beating myself up about this but it drives me crazy when I focus on it.

Looking back I could have done so much more.......I should have known it was coming......why didn't I recognize the signs ? He was so scared after the surgery that I had to leave the hall light on or the lamp in the bedroom on. The hospital delirium came home with him in a reduced form. If the surgeon had made him see a pulmonary dr and he had gotten treatment prior to surgery would that have helped ? I stayed right with him and told him I wasn't going anywhere and not to be scared. That I would never leave him.......but he left me and I'm so sad inside. I try to be and act ok but I'm not.

I WANT my husband back.......do u hear me ? I WANT HIM BACK !

Debi