It has been 5 months since I lost jeff I thought I would be coping a lot better by now it just seems as if it was yesterday I still keep crying I still feel so down I still miss him so much I hate being here with out him I am so lonely I make myself go out and look after the animals as that is what he would want me to do as he loved his alpacas so much I just wish I could feel better.

and tonight my daughter ended up in icu as she tried to kill herself no wonder it is so hard to cope with his death and now her attempted suicide how do you keep going I hate all this

Dianne, I think that looking after the alpacas is a lovely thing to do.

I am sorry to read about your daughter - I hope that she can get help with her issues.

My thoughts are with you.

Dianne

I know how you feel. I lost my DH in 2001 quite unexpectedly. He was 47 and I was 40.

It took me about a year to feel like I could say I was "better". I don't say this to be discouraging but to let you know there are no time limits to grief. Everyone reacts differently and copes in their own way.

People used to say to me "give it time" and "you'll feel better with time". I used to hate that. Time was not my friend. It was my worst enemy. But.......looking back I saw that I was getting better. You don't realize it at the time but one day you'll realize that you've had more good days than bad. You'll realize that you've actually enjoyed something and not felt incredibly guilty for it. It's a slow process - at least it was for me. But is does happen.

I'm so sorry to hear about your daughter's attempt to take her life. I hope the hospital can direct her to a counselor that can help her through her pain.

I hope you'll continue to post here and let us all encourage you.

Kitty