Sorry that I didn't see your post earlier Steash, but I wanted you to know that I understand what you're going through.

This month and last have been rather hard for me as well. They were the anniversaries of my mother and father's deaths from cancer, both of whom died between 57 and 63 yrs of age.

My best friend died from lung cancer 5 years ago in May, and this month sees the anniversary of the death of my first baby. The anniversary of my S-I-L's death from cancer at 41 yrs of age, is in a few weeks time as well.

Last month my brother died from Lymphoma, and a few day later a close friend died from a malignant brain tumour.

September of last year was a biggie for me, and I lost half my bowel during a hemicolectomy due to a cancer, and in January I lost most of my nose, also because of cancer.

I just wanted you to know that I've been there myself, so I truly understand what you've been going through.

Yep! Cancer sucks and it sucks big time, but please let me know if there's anything I can do to help you through this awful time for you.

koalla, thanks for your support at a time when it must be so hard to give. "Always be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle." reading your post this has never felt so true.. thanks again.

((Steash))

Just wondering how you are feeling today.

I watched my sister battle cancer for over a year. She fought it tooth and nail. A less fit person would have succumbed long before she did just before Christmas in 1986. A long time ago.

But I still miss her. Unfortunately, at least for me, living through that battle with my family was hard...long...painful. And after her death it took a long time to come to terms with it. This is when I say those words most people don' t wanna hear...time heals. In cases like this it doesn't get rid of all the pain, but you at least get to a spot where you have dealt with it and can move on.

There's always that hole in my heart, though, that will never be the same.

Whatever faith you may have, if any, utilize it as much as you can and take care of yourself as much as you can. It may sound selfish, but living through these kinds of issues can take a huge toll on your health, both physcial and mental.

Much love and a prayer for you.

there are times when i come on here, guessing the same as everyone, when you feel the whole world and life in general is against you. then you get replies like this. thankyou for asking thanks for posting. i'm fine tonight, just been through the second last chemo with mum. strange thing is we have probably spent more time just us together than we have done in about 20 years and weird as it maybe but its been nice just to sit and talk, just the two of us. thanks again