I think a lot of you know now that my brother recently died, and about the emotional trauma I went through in respects to certain aspects about his death.

I wrote in another forum tonight about what a good day I'd had, and how surprising the MSers at the GTG with a phone call, had really cheered me up.

I posted a photo of Grand Koala as well at The Stumble Inn and that made me feel good..........

And then I got a call a little while ago.......a very close friend who was just 3 weeks younger than me, died yesterday.

I hurt! I hurt really bad, and I can hardly stop the tears! I'm here, talking to you "my family" cos I need your support.

Who will be death number 3 ? Will it be me?

It's just not fair! Not fair at all!

What have I done wrong ?

Oh dear Anne..........im so very sorry. Im awake now in an extreme pain
fog so Im not sure what help I can be to you right now but I wanted
you to feel my arms around you in a big cyber hug.

I wish you peace.

I'm sorry that that you're in pain too.... They're just different types of pain.

Hugs to both of us Soxmom.

Big cyber hugz.

Oh sweetie you have me crying here right along with you. I am so so sorry to hear of yet another loss for you. After losing my Dad, I just can no longer say all the words of comfort I once used to try to console people. It all seems so trite now. Words will not bring your brother,your friend back, or my Dad back.........they won't take away your pain.

I don't believe in that 3 myth, mainly because I have lived through deaths that no one else I knew passed, or more than 3. If nothing else, I hope to ease your mind about that. I am so very saddened you questioned if it would be you. I just got to know you, and your kind words have helped me so much, don't you dare go anywhere

I won't use useless words to try to console, I will instead say... Koala, I am so deeply sorry for your losses and the pain you now find yourself in.
May God keep you and hold you.
May He guide you and keep you safe.
May He hold you in the palm of His hand.
Deep peace of the smiling stars to you.

Oh Anne I am so very sorry. I don't believe in 3's either it's just that the older we get, the more friends and family we lose. I had a great Aunt who lived to be 99 and she would tell me that everyone had died and she wondered why she still continued to live...she'd say God must have something more for me to do.

We are all here for you dear lady..just keep breathing in and out.

The words "I'm sorry" never seem to be the right thing to say, but they are all I have.

My deepest sympathy to you and your family. I greatly admire your strength and courage during these difficult times. I can only tell you that it does get better, eventually. You never forget, but it does get better. In the meantime, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Love and hugs to you all.

Anne

I'm so sorry you're going through so much right now. I wish there were words to take away the pain but we all know much too well that there aren't any. Please don't worry about the myth about the "3's".....that's just a superstition.

You and I have both have had more than our share of losses and I understand what you're going through - really, I do. At times it just feels overwhelming. I know the feeling of just wanting to "get off the ride".

All I can tell you is that you have lots of friends here (family, really) that love you and want to help. Nothing any of us can say or do can reverse what's already happened but we can offer a hug or just a word of compassion letting you know that you're not alone.

Even through your own pain you reach out to others in friendship and love and that says a lot about your sweet and compassionate nature. I sure do wish we didn't live so far away from each other or I'd come over and offer you a real hug and shoulder to cry on. But, cyber hugs and shoulders will have to do for now.

Don't punish yourself for what is totally out of your control. God knows your heart, Anne. He knows each of our hearts and will carry you through this trail just as He has carried me and countless others.

Just remember that we love you and care about you.

Oh, dear (((Koala)))

I was hoping the happy surprise phone call to DM and AMN would carry you through the pain of losing your brother. And now you've lost a close friend. How very sad.

Know you are very loved by your NT family. We really care about you!

Just looking at your adorable Grand Koala made me feel better. Get that little guy and do some serious snuggle time!

Sending up prayers for comfort, inner strength and a measure of peace.

(((((((((((((((((Koala)))))))))))))))))))))))

I am so sorry to read this and have lifted prayers for you

OK! The third thing just happened!

DH just came home from the store, and some-one has side-wiped our car while he was inside the shopping centre. No note. No nothing.

Not a lot of damage, thank goodness, but it's not nice just the same. We've only had that car since January!

Thank you every-one for your prayers and your kind words.

Maybe now things will start to improve for me......