I'm so sorry for your loss and I can understand how it must still be very painful for you. :hug:

I lost a brother and sister. My brother was 19 years old and had a military funeral. I was 12 years old and sat next to my Mom when they played taps. The tears were shooting from her eyes like a sprayer. I felt so helpless and overwhelmed by her grief. She suffered for years after... Then my sister died 12 years later at age 37. Both of my parents suffered so much for their losses. I can only hope I'll go before our sons.

(((DiMarie))) you are in my prayers. :hug:

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Thinking of you there, Di. :hug:

Di, thinking of you at this very difficult time :hug::hug:

We lift you and your family up, she is beautiful. People think I am a little nuts but I still talk to my loved ones. A parent should never out live there children. If you just need to visit we are here.

Di :hug: I am sorry, as a male I can not know the true essence of the passing of a child, but as father who was the sole parent I can understand the hurt and depth of the pain, My prayers and my wifes are with you always:hug:

I'm so sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you :hug: I can only imagine the pain in your heart. Try to take it a day at a time, cry when you have to, let it all out :grouphug:

Bless you all for caring :grouphug:
I do all I can to go on, but some of the best treatment comes for caring friends, that just hug and allow me to share.

Ewizabeth,
you said it so well when you shared how your Mom's loss had her crying like sprayers. I remember using hand towels as tissues would never touch the flow. The heavy flow of tears, has been more controled, but the heart ache of acceptance of the days as they go by is increased.

I hope that I can find answers, I do not want a family to loose a love one as I did. Maybe that is part of the healing, and stages of grief, blame. and I pray for justification.

So I pray, cry, and go forward each day, not each hour as it had been.
Blessings to all of you and my prayers for the losses.
di

Di, I just have to tell you this... Not sure if I'll make much sense but I'll try. I was away from computer access for a very long time, but when I came back I checked for your name, [even though we rarely used the same forums]. I'd seen you posting for years here and there but I was so upset and sad for you when your daughter passed away and I cried and cried for your loss.

I remember posting to you on a thread way back then, but only once I think, because it was in your home forum. The thing that I'm trying to convey here, is that even though I only posted once, you were always in my thoughts. I think many people felt the same so even if they never said or say it publicly or even if they are people you haven't known very well on the internet, please know that there are many of us like me who have been there alongside you all the way. I have teary eyes just writing to you about this now.

One day at a time... :hug: