Di, I just have to tell you this... Not sure if I'll make much sense but I'll try. I was away from computer access for a very long time, but when I came back I checked for your name, [even though we rarely used the same forums]. I'd seen you posting for years here and there but I was so upset and sad for you when your daughter passed away and I cried and cried for your loss.

I remember posting to you on a thread way back then, but only once I think, because it was in your home forum. The thing that I'm trying to convey here, is that even though I only posted once, you were always in my thoughts. I think many people felt the same so even if they never said or say it publicly or even if they are people you haven't known very well on the internet, please know that there are many of us like me who have been there alongside you all the way. I have teary eyes just writing to you about this now.

One day at a time...

Lara,
I know exactly what you are saying and it moves me to tears as that is how I am surviving. If I had to go through this alone, I would be just a shell. But, friends and the circle they create around me keep me going.

You words are so deep to my soul and touching into my heart. Lara,you have a sensitive kindness that is a blessing to more people then just me I bet.

I wish I could hug you all, It is with out any doubt I knew the love of friends long time and new, that have touched me in so many special ways.
Sometimes I think it is my De that sends you all to say just what I need to hear.
I am sitting here with tears just running down my face by the thoughts you are sharing.
Many years on the forum and many unseen faces, but the new friends and old are my paved way to go through each day.

Thank you, Thank you, so very much...
All of you are so special to me and caring I do not know how I would go through this without the forum friends I have made.

I just hpe that I do not have to support my dear friends because of a loss like this.
I love you all so much
I know my De is so glad I have you all.
di

Until i lost my daughter to cancer 6 years ago, i did not know the difference between crying, and sobbing.i learned quick.my heart feels your hearts pain.from one mom to another.

I'm so sorry Mary...warm hugs.

thanks so much for the warm hugs alffe, no one talks about her anymore, your kindness means alot.

I sat beside my amys bed, and watched her die a painful death, but with kindness and such grace. The part that really hurts so deeply, is that 6 years earlier, I got severe Guillain-Barre, and clinically died 3 times, yet lived to face the death of my child.It should have been me, not her. It should have been me.

Mary, cancer is such a monster..I lost a brother to it..but to lose a child is just the hardest thing..we aren't supposed to outlive our children.

Thank the Lord for our good memories of them.

Well, big hugs for both "Marys"