Lara,
I know exactly what you are saying and it moves me to tears as that is how I am surviving. If I had to go through this alone, I would be just a shell. But, friends and the circle they create around me keep me going.

You words are so deep to my soul and touching into my heart. Lara,you have a sensitive kindness that is a blessing to more people then just me I bet.

I wish I could hug you all, It is with out any doubt I knew the love of friends long time and new, that have touched me in so many special ways.
Sometimes I think it is my De that sends you all to say just what I need to hear.
I am sitting here with tears just running down my face by the thoughts you are sharing.
Many years on the forum and many unseen faces, but the new friends and old are my paved way to go through each day.

Thank you, Thank you, so very much...
All of you are so special to me and caring I do not know how I would go through this without the forum friends I have made.

I just hpe that I do not have to support my dear friends because of a loss like this.
I love you all so much
I know my De is so glad I have you all.
di

We are all like a big spread out family.

I know these 2 years have been painful for you and your family Di. Your posts have been encouragement to others. You have been so brave. I'm proud to be your friend.

One of our RSD members just had her 20 yr old daughter pass away. I'm sure reading your posts will help her through the darkness.

You are are a special person for us all Curious!

It is a club I never want anyone to be a member of. I feel I should be visiting my grandchildren, not visiting her grave. Especially losing anyone during this time of the year. Nothing cures, but some things help.

I am not sure if I said it on this thread, but:
When you lose parents you are an Orphan, when you lose a Spouse you are a widow, but when you lose a child there are no words for it.

She can feel free to contact me...

DiMarie

Sending thoughts and prayers to you. I remember the day it first
posted. And wishing I could put my arms around you.

You made the comment, that you hope your situation with her
death has made a impact in someone's life.

I know for a fact it has. I watch out for my sister's who have some
of the same problems a lot closer. I've told them both to make sure
they let me or someone in the family know if things aren't right.

And I also keep a close eye on my parents and their kids that I advocate
for. So much so that I can say I know of at least one time your
story has probably saved a young one in my area.

So thank you from those that I serve, your story being so openly told.
Has saved many, and will

Donna

My dear friend Donna,
I am so moved, if you can picture me crying and thankful all at once.
Thank you for sharing your message with me. I needed it so much. It made my heart swell to know the implications your caring extended from my tears. It carries me day to day.

When I read about Debby's recentloss of her dd, and the dates to my own dd, I just wanted to wrap her in my arms and take away some of the heart ache.
No parent should lose a child. But, if a miricle of a message can come out of it, the healing goes on....
AND, I never could go on without the support of the forum friends. If I said it once, I will say it forever, many more times.
All my love
di

What an uplifting thread, DiMarie. There are some very lovely posts here. Isn't it nice to be surrounded by those who care and understand?

Sending hugs your way today.

Until i lost my daughter to cancer 6 years ago, i did not know the difference between crying, and sobbing.i learned quick.my heart feels your hearts pain.from one mom to another.

I'm so sorry Mary...warm hugs.

thanks so much for the warm hugs alffe, no one talks about her anymore, your kindness means alot.

I sat beside my amys bed, and watched her die a painful death, but with kindness and such grace. The part that really hurts so deeply, is that 6 years earlier, I got severe Guillain-Barre, and clinically died 3 times, yet lived to face the death of my child.It should have been me, not her. It should have been me.