The hurt is still so tight in my chest, I still look out the door to watch for her. Willing to see her.

I still sit and remember the baby clothes smell, toddler days, the teen years, and all the good times and painful ones.....

Sometimes I just want to run down to her and dig down until I can grab her and hold her....I ache. No one at home has even mentioned today.

On my sons birthday her birthday did come in the lottery. A joke that started years ago when on his Birthday I bought him his lotto ticket and her birthday came in...the following year her birthday they joked I should have bought her brothers birthday. I didn't because "what was the chance?"
Well,I'll be darn, it came in! She was so funny....Mom I could have had $500!

I see her in my dreams and say to her, let me look at you, soon I will wake and you will be gone again....
My Angel I feel you with us,
Mommy

my heart goes out to you..

I can't begin to understand how much pain you're going through DiMarie.

I lost 4 of my babies but they all died before they were born. I never got the chance to hold any of them, or get to know them like you did your own daughter.

I grieved for their loss.... each and every one of them, and there have been times when it hurt so much, I didn't think I'd survive. The pain was so bad!

DiMarie, your pain must be at least ten fold what I went through....... having a child to nurture, to hold, to love.

Please know that I'm thinking of you.... that I care.

HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS I lost a daughter,but full term still birth..and cant imagine after they have grown. HUGSSSSSSSSSSSS and thinking of you, hugss,sarah

Those anniversary dates are so hard to get through Di, of course we miss them everyday...but it's somehow worse on "that" day.

DiMarie, my brother died when he was 19. It has been 30 years and I still hurt, I still cry, and I still wish I could hug him one last time.

But I can't even begin to imagine the pain you and my mom & dad have had to endure.

No one should have to bury their child.

God bless you.

you will hold each other again, and it will be for eternity.

Until then I wish you peace and strength to deal with your emptiness.

Di I am sorry, as a male I can not know the true essence of the passing of a child, but as father who was the sole parent I can understand the hurt and depth of the pain, My prayers and my wifes are with you always

I'm so sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you I can only imagine the pain in your heart. Try to take it a day at a time, cry when you have to, let it all out

Bless you all for caring
I do all I can to go on, but some of the best treatment comes for caring friends, that just hug and allow me to share.

Ewizabeth,
you said it so well when you shared how your Mom's loss had her crying like sprayers. I remember using hand towels as tissues would never touch the flow. The heavy flow of tears, has been more controled, but the heart ache of acceptance of the days as they go by is increased.

I hope that I can find answers, I do not want a family to loose a love one as I did. Maybe that is part of the healing, and stages of grief, blame. and I pray for justification.

So I pray, cry, and go forward each day, not each hour as it had been.
Blessings to all of you and my prayers for the losses.
di