The hurt is still so tight in my chest, I still look out the door to watch for her. Willing to see her.

I still sit and remember the baby clothes smell, toddler days, the teen years, and all the good times and painful ones.....

Sometimes I just want to run down to her and dig down until I can grab her and hold her....I ache. No one at home has even mentioned today.

On my sons birthday her birthday did come in the lottery. A joke that started years ago when on his Birthday I bought him his lotto ticket and her birthday came in...the following year her birthday they joked I should have bought her brothers birthday. I didn't because "what was the chance?"
Well,I'll be darn, it came in! She was so funny....Mom I could have had $500!

I see her in my dreams and say to her, let me look at you, soon I will wake and you will be gone again....
My Angel I feel you with us,
Mommy

my heart goes out to you..

I can't begin to understand how much pain you're going through DiMarie.

I lost 4 of my babies but they all died before they were born. I never got the chance to hold any of them, or get to know them like you did your own daughter.

I grieved for their loss.... each and every one of them, and there have been times when it hurt so much, I didn't think I'd survive. The pain was so bad!

DiMarie, your pain must be at least ten fold what I went through....... having a child to nurture, to hold, to love.

Please know that I'm thinking of you.... that I care.

HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS I lost a daughter,but full term still birth..and cant imagine after they have grown. HUGSSSSSSSSSSSS and thinking of you, hugss,sarah

Those anniversary dates are so hard to get through Di, of course we miss them everyday...but it's somehow worse on "that" day.

DiMarie, my brother died when he was 19. It has been 30 years and I still hurt, I still cry, and I still wish I could hug him one last time.

But I can't even begin to imagine the pain you and my mom & dad have had to endure.

No one should have to bury their child.

God bless you.

you will hold each other again, and it will be for eternity.

Until then I wish you peace and strength to deal with your emptiness.

Im so sorry...........its so hard to learn to live with a broken heart. It
sounds like you have some wonderful memories of your beautiful daughter.
..no parent should ever have to lose a child..

DiMarie, my heart goes out to you.

Thank you for all the kind words and love and even sharing the understanding of loss. I am so sorry for Mothers that lose a child, baby, or grown.

No one is mentioning it at home fearing ro upset me more.....
I sit at my sons house caring for my grandson and as he naps I weep. But, cherish holding him.

My dil is very depressed and medications have been giving side effects, my son just called that she is being admitted for observation...
I have so much worry and concern for the halth of my family, the loss of my job, my husbands loss of his he had for 42 years.

I pray for all the people that are needing prayers too. I pray for broken hearts to mend, the economics to improve, and peace...

Hugs and my love,
Di