Linda, you are a very special person~
 

Sent to care for a special life. Since you knew David so well, how do you think he would feel if he could see you now? Do you think he would want you to greve this way? Or for your life to be put on hold?

Perhaps you could find a way to honor him. Maybe you could give to a foundation or help someone else. I already had people give to Hospis Care. (not spelled right). And they already know I plan to help them with pepole that are dying of cancer. I have told them I would donate my time. Then, when I die, if my son isn't alive, all my money goes to them. I have a will made out to see this is carried out.

Linda, they are the ones that were there for me when Bob died. They still come for grief councling. I have raised funds for them and will continue to do so.

Maybe you could figure a way to help David like this. This the way I have chose to reach out and help someone else. The Blessing comes back, I can assure you.
May God Bless You,
Billie
Edit to add: Linda I will be praying you find a way to honor David. I think it will help.
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thank you
 

for the advice..i have donated most of his things to others that needed them..i also donated his body to science..just received the ashes in nov 06. i use to teach special ed and have given alot of my time and money into helping other children for many years.i am also taking care of my autistic brother terry so my time is limited.david was just the most precious angel to me and everybody who met him. with all his medical and mental problems one smile from him or to look at his eyes sparkle would melt your heart.
he would hate the way i am dealing with this..if i was upset when he was here i had to either go outside or the bathroom so he couldn't hear me..he then would sit outside the bathroom door and try to look under the door and whistle..i couldn't stay upset for long with him around..
i am trying to control it but having little luck at doing so..i have been going to therapy and it is sort of helping some..but i know i have a long way to go. the psyc has put me on prozac and i see him once a month. terry helps at night when he isn't at his program. my boyfriend steve helps but he is missing him too..david was like his son. i am ok when around others..learned how to hide it...but when i am alone.....i remember what i have lost and will never get back and it hurts so much that there isn't anyway to hide from it...i try to stay busy but with all my medical problems..one thing a day is alot for me to do...this vertigo is making things even harder..walking into walls and falling down is making me worse. i am here when anybody needs me(terry, my grandmother and my oh so many people i know who come to me with their problems) i am great at helping others(as my doc says) i need to learn how to help myself the same way..well, now that this is too long to read..i have to go and put terry to bed... peace **** linda

Hon, I ask you to vent. It does help to talk, and I am so glad to listen. Only someone going threw the same thing can understand. I know the emptyness and don't try to fill it with something else.

Linda you have been threw a lot and time will help but give it more time. I hope you are on some kind of depression medicine. I am, only I don't feel like I need it all the time. It sounds like you have done a lot of the right things to reach out and help others. If you need someone to talk too you can PM me also.
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Billie