[colombiangirl1]

I've finally decided
Once and for all
Because I'm tired
And I can't take the fall
I know in myself
That now I have some esteem
Something I needed
To gain this relief
I need to escape
Because of the pain
I need to relate
And I'm not to blame
Knowing this now--
Instead of then
Makes sense
Because of my head
The need to leave
Is very strong
The need to leave
Is not wrong
I'm doing it for myself you see
I'm doing it because
I need this relief
-(Written , for my husband-not meant to be mean)

[colombiangirl1]

if i could write a song
to sing when you're feeling down
i wonder how it'd go
not too fast
but not too slow?

it's hard to be strong
when you're being pulled
then pushed then torn apart
heart strings playing the
sad melody that overtakes
your heart

you feel like a canoe
being tossed in the ocean
out of control with no way to shore.
without a paddle it's hard to control
with a hole in the bottom it's hard not to sink

you're not alone
you dont need to worry
the angels around you will
help and they'll hurry

you see the shore
and ride the wave
almost there
and you're pulled away
but you use your strength
and fight the length

my family is there
waiting for you
hoping you'll return
the girl that they knew
the girl with a smile
in her eyes
a contagious laugh
a contagous cry

the contagious question why? why? why?
and how? why now?

again you're coming
close and know that you will make it
life is not easy you know that you can take it.

don't be afraid
to ask for help
that's why i'm here
i'll always protect
never far
always near

you've made it to shore
and the doctors are there
standing around you making you well

life support and family support
sometimes it feels like life's too short.

too short for me
too short for you
too short to sit and say you're blue.

and then we're home
and things are fine
you go to your job
and i go to mine

we're cathing a breeze
that will help us along
to ride the wave
to reach the shore
to reach a place where
we'll fear no more

closer and closer everyday
I know we'll make it
if we don't lose faith.
love always,
Ben