[colombiangirl1]

Life is too short
To spend your time
Doing things that won't
Make you happy...

You don't have any years
To spend crying tears
About all the horrible things
That happened to you...

Everyone's had a hard time
Now though, I'm forgetting
About mine...

It's about loving, and, learning
Forget what you're earning
It doesn't matter
In the end...

I have finally begun
To find my true friends
The ones that WERE there
Never really did care
Never really showed their love
When I needed them there....

You see, I have learned something...

I now go through life
With a healthy dose of skepticism
Something that finds you
While you are posessed by the prison
That abuse has cornered you in...

And, I'm still so afraid of sin
Afraid of where it leads in the end
But, I am training myself
To not scream anymore
When I'm startled awake
By my alarm...

I've moved it to the bathroom...

I still say my sister's name
Every morning
When the alarm sounds
Her name, is the first word
Out of my mouth....

It's how I start most days
I don't know why
It's what I say
Maybe because
Of all her pain
That I could not save
Her from....

The unfair guilt is slowly leaving too....

Because I know, it had nothing to do
With me
It's just still so hard
Because she won't believe me
I guess she's just not ready
To face those demons
It's okay
She doesn't have to
I'll remember
For both of us
Because
I don't want her to be
Hurt by it
All over again....

I've always dreamed
Of telling all this
And laying in the arms
Of someone
While they kiss
It all away....

Maybe, that will
Happen some day....