Yes I was...it was hard for me. Yes my services have been restored. Thanks for your kind words Lara. It helps.

I've been there
 

:grouphug: Just over two years ago, I felt the same way you do now. I attempted to overdose. The doctors said there was no medical explanation for how I survived - it could only have been divine intervention. Today, I am soooo grateful that I survived. You're doing the right thing by reaching out. Please know that I CARE and that sooo many other people do too! :grouphug:

It may be hard for a very long time. Once you get over this past week or so, you might find that you have some lingering fears. It's natural. Don't give in to your fears. Talk it out here or with someone close to you that you trust and who you know understands the whole situation. I'm still traumatized by what happened here where I live at the beginning of the year. It just sits in the back of my mind all the times. What I try to do is the old adage of "smell the roses".

The difficult part is being alone I guess. Like me. It's scary when you're alone.

Not sure if you have much damage or flood issues inside your home. I had a bit last summer, but it was nothing compared with most. I just had to get to work and clean up. Took a long time actually. I'm not sure I'm quite there yet myself... just so you know.

You're not alone!!!

Wow! Thanks for that. no flood in my home at all. yes being alone was very scary and difficult for me. I sat through the storm crying most of the time. Thank you for sharing your experience. The state that I live in doesn't usually get hit that hard however as of late it has. :(

Try to get some rest. It will help.

I look forward to reading that you are feeling so much stronger in the days to come. It was an unusual storm. The one good thing about it was that it wasn't as bad as it could have been.

I can hear the sea and I can see a sliver of moon.
I need to sleep.
Goodnight ladydeedee. Please do post how you're doing.

Dear ladydeedee
 

I wonder why I am here all the time. I am so sorry you hurt this bad today. Not every day will be so bad. Depression seems to cycle around what your medical issues are. Keep here with people on this site to talk to. Don't give up. I face medical issues too, where I want to run away and not do anything at all. I wish there were words to help you to stop crying. sometimes I blast my blues music to drown out my crying and eventually I stop. I wish I could hug you, bring you comfort. Those of us in pain, reach out to others in pain, and I am glad you did. Do you have any kind of support in your own house hold, or spiritual family? I made a friend here at this site who has helped me not to give up. Please keep reaching out. I care about you. You are a human in pain and in need. My prayers and hope for you are reaching back to you right now. Try to do one small thing for yourself, even if you are walking around crying. Eat a piece of chocolate, listen to a song, read the bible. do something if you can to "be active", get a bowl of cereal. do something to try to break the crying cycle. I do this and it works for me. I even walk around the house yelling because I am so angry, but I am nibbling on that piece of chocolate. It is kinda of like trying to find a distraction, even for a minute. The people here in this site will try to help too. Be kind to yourself, allow that breath of life to come back into your being. Chemar, has good advise too sometimes. She is a moderator on this site. I will keep praying for you. ginnie

Thank you sooo much ginnie...I just cried reading this. I don't have anyone honestly that is truly here for me. I try to be strong however as of late...everything has seemed to be out of control. I have never felt this out of control. I don't know how I am going to make it. Thank you for your kind words again...... thank you for the prayers.

Thank you Katie...thank you for caring. I am glad you are still here also. THank you for sharing your experience.... :)

Just wanted to post quick msg to you ladydeedee.
Hope you're feeling a little stronger today.

Lady...I hope that if you ever have thoughts of suicide that you will go immediately to the hospital. This is so very important. Do not hesitate...just go and get immediate help!

Talking with friends is always good. Also, please put a call in for a doctor and get an appointment right away! You might need to get on an anti depressant. What about talk therapy? Have you ever been to a therapist?

Depression is tricky business....but not an impossible thing to overcome. It takes some work...but so very worth it when it gets better or even goes away!!!!!!

Do whatever little things you can do to help. Some say certain vitamins like D3, B Complex and Fish Oil are helpful. Is there a health food store nearby where you can ask for help about these things? What about exercise? Can you do a little of this?

Again, go straight to the hospital if you have dark thoughts.

Whatever the case might be, it all starts with getting to a doctor. Please make that call!