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09-18-2015, 02:56 PM | #171 | |||
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Dear Eva,
Try your best to visit with your friend, only good can come of it. Dave.
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You and I are yesterday's answers, The earth of the past come to flesh, Eroded by Time's rivers To the shapes we now possess. The Sage - Emerson, Lake & Palmer. |
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09-18-2015, 09:52 PM | #172 | |||
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(((((( Eva ))))))
May you feel surrounded by Love DejaVu
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09-20-2015, 05:05 PM | #173 | |||
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"it" still yet to let up
ripping at my gut morning after morning not a day goes by and feel "it" there waiting for me to wake the pain of my being physically upon waking no words to explain to now have to wait till my second dose to make appointments after taking the second dose is a must i am not ready for an increase as my nerve related problems cannot be found and i'm tired and do not like going the the withdrawal but who cares nobody is truly listening this is my experience still waiting for my PAP and with my history is anyone paying attention called and canceled twice doctor delivering babies ohhhh not to mention my breast cancer i had to get script for sonogram of them last Wednesday of this month and an script for X-ray of cervical region as i hit my head twice both time trying to be careful lifting my head bam! a nice knot on top so that a mouth full still doing my job as mother and grandmother never wavering in fact they both want my full attention i do the best i can not looking forward to the holidays even though i am working so hard to finish my home it was never completed slowly it is coming together i cry with such sadness this will be my last hooray decorating my home i have been working on it since they painted the bathrooms and the ceiling i attempted to put a coat on my walls as it is broken up by two colors put the mirrors up along dining room wall crying as the pain is so great when in resting position i want someone to blow me away and i will never abuse my meds by taking any more than prescribed out of shape i an sad i am as i have no job to know the job i had and was unable to return to would blow your mind yet again i have no control of my hands and feet they are just so bloody bad i want to die or just kill the parts that hurt anyone get it why even bother anymore my last hooray love me
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09-20-2015, 09:59 PM | #174 | ||
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Believe me I do get it. This depression is strangling you to no end. Your family issues just add to the depression. Just pray you will get out and visit with the "old friend". I know you are very lonely for companionship/friendship.
I have a lot going on myself; but I am fortunate to have my family to lean on which really helps. I am dealing with needing surgery for two Ventral Incisional Hernias. One starting just above mid-waist above navel, the second from navel all the way down to pubic area. It will be a very long/large incision. This is the result of the cancer/rectal surgery incision I had 3 years ago. I am so frightened especially since the recurrence is high, especially with the narcotic meds causing constipation and straining. Also, a very painful surgery which needs mesh implanted. Very high risk of infection; but without mesh it is even more likely to recur. The hernias are enlarging and can strangulate; but fear the additional pain and recuperating so have put off scheduling the surgery. I will keep you in my prayers. Please keep me in your prayers. Gerry |
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"Thanks for this!" says: | EnglishDave (09-21-2015), eva5667faliure (09-21-2015) |
09-22-2015, 08:37 AM | #175 | |||
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What a b...h it was this morning And all I on my mind was you As I was having trouble myself not having the ability to pass I have tried miralax as suggested Not a budge It may be a problem for some to hear things of this nature It is mostly pellets jammed into what should be a successful elimination The moment opioids entered this body as with everyone else Rarely will there be a urge to pass and push So unsuccessful I return to bed the nausea comes to visit as this now is a chore There are times it will take a week for something to pass through What was the basis of that eating corn the week before when having crabs Dear beautiful lady You have me like the back of your hand Corissa sends her heart giving her genuine concern on you condition She is doing better in turtle walks But there is change Her program is not one to give up on her Her father on the other hand is a different story I have held him responsible on many issues Corissa needs braces for her teeth Now I could have very easily forced him rather guilt him into getting the new invisiline new stuff Someone who could pay it off in one shot Knocked her down I expressed The insurance we have now does not allow it As considered cosmetics Explained how two of her siblings had them when younger than her and to look at the bigger picture A. It will be quicker than quick B. your smile will shine even brighter C. Most importantly you will be able to one day do something and it will leave him speechless and embarrassed She was able to grasp the unspoken truth She will be returning to school She just wanted to express her thoughts of you Her sadness was evident when giving her the news I want you to truly know your constant presence in my thoughts are alive and your understanding deeper than the average individual But befor any of that came alive and you deeper understanding You continue to inspire Thank you for your deeper concerns You know what I speak of I hope and pray for a miricle That things just you get I ask God for the healing of A WILL OF HIS MIGHT TO REMOVE WHAT MUST GO AND REPLACE IT WITH HEALTHY PARTS I could not get off the commode I could not catch a break I always wonder with the prexistance of our trouble with the opioid curse Dear friend My shoulders are broad My door open And with that came a wonder as we pray for each others Happiness You are lucky to have family that surround You when need be How lucky you are Prayers always Much love to you and family Me
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09-22-2015, 11:15 AM | #176 | ||
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Thank you for your concerns.
Corissa; so glad to hear you are going back to school. I really do care about you. Having heard your voice seemed to make me feel a strong connection with you. Hold on and be good to yourself; you can have a great life ahead;" keep your chin up and hold your head up high". Eva, as you mentioned the subject matter (BM) is a bit off; but it's a must. Unless I take two Miralax a day, not much will happen. With these narcotic meds; one is not enough. I did try the newer prescription capsules Amitiza; but they just made me feel like I had the flu, plus they worked less than the Miralax. I still find the Miralax works the best; but only if I take it twice a day. You might want to try twice a day. If twice a day is too much; then try twice every other day. (It's worth a" try"...lol .) Thanks for being there. Love & Prayers, Gerry |
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"Thanks for this!" says: | eva5667faliure (09-22-2015) |
10-13-2015, 11:58 AM | #177 | |||
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Loosing my writing Pain out of control Mind is following Today I wake to vomit It be the second attempt I hate it all HATE said it Will now have to wait to take afternoon Meds Will not retake morning Meds Is this how it's going to be now Before I wake I want to die Now I have a backed up gut And am sure the nausea stems from that What I don't eat now Father as you mould me to your liking I have lost my way I am torn I want to live But my pain is talking louder Out all day yesterday My body on the move Corissa orthodontist Buy Eva sneakers Pick up medicine for all of us Change Corissas three hoody sweatshirts Pricey I had to exchange for larger size All this attributes to what I am feeling magnified There are way to many things going on in the last month My eventual sonogram of my hollowed out chest finally to find out what the pain was that I was experiencing again Nobody really listening IS MY IMPLANT AND THE RIPPLING EDGES OF THE BAG oh my WONDERFUL DOCTORS THAT BUTCHERED ME IN TWO SEPERATE NOT RELATED at least I don't think so Until I think of ALL the X-RAYS MRI CT WITH WITHOUT SONOGRAMS AND SOME I will never know But one thing for certain I know what the fudge is going on with my body NO DOCTOR WILL TELL ME WHAT I FEEL POSTING BEFORE I LOOSE THIS IPOD ACTING WEIRED NOT MECHANACLY TECH SMART Back Not feeling any better I am going to permit Christine with Corissa and friend in tow to go to the movies I will rest as yesterday was an overdone Push yourself Eva Look your best Eva Put lipstick on Eva All done For what I'm miserable Because I want to move I mean keep up with the flow of people on the streets Not to have to step a side so I don't hold others up Honestly my sister has a beautiful spirit She said to me in the past two days Someone who is about to have a third surgery now a complete hysterectomy Insurance refusing surgery Deemed "not necessary" Someone with a history of HPV cancer removed cervix Irregular excruciating periods at times almost can be considered internal bleed Endometriosis both d&c that she had And because the staff did not provide evidence of all the attempts to keep the overies Women you do understand why I pray Needless Now the doctor and insurance company will do what is called peer to peer to show why surgery is the only thing that will stop my sister to have the type of cysts that are not voiding her body Rather She will become ill with fever until the internal vaginal cyst burst and caused a horrific order and relief NOW SOMEBODY PLEASE WHAT THE BLANK IS WRONG WITH THIS COUNTRY MY SISTER COULD DIE OF SEPSIS WITH THESE DANGEROUS cysts that was handled step by step Really And she says to me Sis God is putting this off for a reason And I understand she has what I want Complete trust in my Father She gave me such inspiration
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10-13-2015, 05:07 PM | #178 | |||
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Dear Eva,
I agree with you as to the probable cause of your nausea and vomiting. That doesn't make it any easier to deal with, nor make the fact that your morning meds are useless easier to cope with. You have been exerting yourself, you need to rest. Do not concern yourself with keeping up physically with the rest of the World. I feel they can learn some manners and darned well wait for me! As for your sister, it is no surprise you speak of her so fondly. She sounds as much an inspiration to you as you are to us. Please send her my best wishes while she waits for Bureaucracy to get it's head out of it's butt. Dave.
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"Thanks for this!" says: | eva5667faliure (10-14-2015), RSD ME (10-14-2015) |
10-14-2015, 05:15 AM | #179 | ||
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hi eva. i'm so sorry you are having such a hard time. i also get nauseas from my meds especially first thing in the morning when i wake up. (today doesn't count because i was up all night due to rsd pain and stress. i think i am getting an ulcer.) sometimes drinking milk with my meds helps coat my stomach so i don't feel as nauseas and vanilla activia too. i hope you feel better soon.
i am also sorry for your sister. i too have had endometriosis and the human papilloma virus. (hpv). i have had two major surgeries for them. first surgery they took out my ovaries. second surgery they too out everything else. i still have terrible abdominal pain that they they is due to the rsd spreading to my stomach. (because rsd can spread after surgeries as we all know all too well). i hope your sister can find a dr who will approve her surgery so that she doesn't get more cysts and infections. i would keep looking for a dr who will do this so she can get the proper treatment. i will pray for your both. i know how hard life can be and how depressing it can be but please don't give up. i try to pay attention to the beautiful things in life like the leaves changing color and the sun rising in the moring. (won't be long for that now.) it doesn't fix all our problems but it helps brighten my day a little. i care about all of you so i hope you keep trying to hold onto hope that today will be better then yesterday. i am sending healing thoughts and prayers your way and your sisters way.
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10-14-2015, 08:33 AM | #180 | |||
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As I lie on my left side
Not to many positions left to find any relief For this body cries out to be touched Yet it hurts to get a hug Regrets I have a few My mind afloat hanging on Attached a body that is rotting quicker than quick am getting tired of holding it together the blatant disrespect I will never stand The office management in this building For example I did everything necessary on my part having to go to DMV please that was another slap you in the face disrespectful state workers that were exposed over the years of my life the corrupt activity giving out illegal licenses to many not in this country legally as I had to become a citizen Nevertheless I submitted required documentation to "them" in the office After thirty days I inquired about my handy cap spot that would keep me safe from where I was given a spot that left me to go to the car in horrible weather if I have to go to the doctors just an example I was ignored The wrong thing to do to this cookie What was the sad fact is this I am not to be reckoned with when I stand in the truth It saddens me to have to become assertive and make my stance be heard I bypassed the managers at this point called main headquarters asked for Simmon And the message I left went like such "I am new to the building And I know my rights I have complied to the rules I expect the management to do the same I believe after thirty day lead time was more than enough Please Do not make me make that ONE phone call" In less than twenty four hours I was given a spot that is right out the exit door to the second level in clear view of the camera Well in the week it was parked in its new spot someone in retaliation mode I believe it to even be the office who is behind it as I over road the witch who enjoys strong arming people in this building I had ten years experience with the previous building A great experience But a horrific situation with the previous building the judge stripped him becoming owner of the building Being in town picking up my Meds passed by and the building is under major repairs This only two women myself and another tenant Ten hard years And now this building I DON'T THINK SO YET AS YOU SAID DAVID WHERE IS THE MANNERS WHY CAN'T IT BE A SIMPLE PROCESS WHY TRY AND STRONG ARM ME AND THEN RETALIATE BY KEYING MY CAR AND THE OFFICE DID NOT WANT TO VIEW THE TAPES because A week is to long to view So now I do the work for them Taking video everyday in the end pan over to the camara They were in the hope I would move my car Not going to happen Informed the office of my intentions if the situation should happen again I will call the police have a report on file Can you imagine I mean really All this unnecessary If you just do your job As I did what was required It sickened me But now the office gets me Don't blank with me Why are there persons Many in my experience That are plain BULLIES NOT ON MY WATCH anyhow just an example Doing this such as accepting money for an apartment This I know for certain Persons who have no business living in the HUD involved building Two some even three parking spaces As the owner sent out a notice there is one free parking per unit Oh crap just sick of it I'm getting angry just writing about it Done I will not ever allow anyone strong arm me Or my family Dear friends of mine Who put up with my crap Know I take no pleasure having not being heard when talking to management But it is what it is and my car gets keyed Such beautiful people Would you all agree And then the one who want a free ride on my skirt tail Afraid of "THEM" I am sick of the bull turd Corruption Sick of it I still do my duties As mom and grandma Today I'm tired Posting not to loose my writing Be right back Someone told me about the Remember me option I can't find it So Ill just post Come back via through Edit Here I go
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