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12-10-2015, 03:54 PM | #221 | |||
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Grand Magnate
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we empower each other i need you with the rest of us together we hold each other up thank you for Your support i stay to be true to myself love me stay well and may your days be bright
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12-22-2015, 08:12 AM | #222 | |||
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I have been fighting being visited by depression
so hard I have been doing good for the most part I am conscious and aware when it hovers over me I ask it to leave and come back another time only in the last two days IT is really trying to bring me down I hate IT once IT gets a hold on me it is really hard to shake it My blow out with my middle sister Was very ugly VERY UGLY have her blocked from contacting me anymore other than sending me a message the old fashioned way I had mentioned in the past I allowed my sister to use my Dell card to my nephew who needed it for school Rutgers college A woman who is an addict And there possibly is my answer She TRIED TO STIFF me of the purchase Giving me a hard time paying me back Why I have no clue But this is where enough is enough The disgusting things she typed Disgusting referring to my illness I contacted my ex-brother in law My nephews father and began explaining what my sister was attempting I think all hell broke loose between them My sister lies and manipulated so many things Her now husband who my nephew expressed to my child this past summer They are a year apart He proceeds to tell Corissa If you could be born into a different family would you My daughter Corissa told him My mother has ALWAYS been by my side No matter what my mother will tell me the truth about anything she knows I never lied to my babies They know e v e r y t h i n g about me And I would never steer them wrong So, he said, you wouldn't wish to be born in another family Never she said I can't imagine me not having her as my mother This is a small indication how tiny he feels at home My sister is wrapped up with her now husband in the hospital because he won't stop drinking The liver transplant unit released him as a patient as he refuses to follow the what the doctors just have up He is in the hospital for his failing kidneys Get the picture My daughter expressed how George's Wish this past summer when I had them as guests at the pool and they would take walks together As two teenager who are first cousin He is an only child Say to my kid My mother put Paul before me How bloody sad is that I am thrilled my brother in law is in my nephews life I now cut off any kind of commication after wishing me ill I will not stand for it And now she is alone with her addict husband and brings it into her home as if my nephew never came across the dirty needdles May he do well And he knows he always can come to me and ask me anything And if I have an answer I will always Tell him the truth Me
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"Thanks for this!" says: | EnglishDave (12-22-2015), RSD ME (12-26-2015) |
12-22-2015, 02:57 PM | #223 | |||
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Dear eva,
There is no accounting for taste, but putting anyone before your own child is unfathomable to me. Keep fighting to have that Depression stay away, you are better off basking in the light. Dave.
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"Thanks for this!" says: | eva5667faliure (12-22-2015), RSD ME (12-26-2015) |
12-22-2015, 04:45 PM | #224 | |||
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thank you and those who follow love me
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"Thanks for this!" says: | EnglishDave (12-22-2015), RSD ME (12-25-2015) |
12-23-2015, 09:44 AM | #225 | |||
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And for the most part it hasn't gotten the better of me Until my middle sister Ildie tried stiffing me it of payment of the computer she asked me if shecould use my account with Dell My nephew is in shape for school And I get the shaft Her explication I don't have it now You will just have to wait Her ex-husband will be the one to pay off the balance He called and we spoke I have to this day am clueless what made her think she was not responsible I needed to take steps I'd rather not bring up again It is not something I wanted to do And I was getting hit hard after paying off the obligations I have on a monthly basis I just do not for the life of me would ever think my sister would think she can get away saying some of the many untruths I try with all my might to always keep it real No lies Being true to the situation She then has a picture in her mind She is better then others kind of attitude Well she wore this family knot to nothing She came to me and I was able to help yet it was agreed paid in two installments Going into month four Purchase of computer was 10-2-2015 With a two percent savings as be is a student When placing the order and the CSR was gracious Explaining the two percent discount My sister third party on the line chimes in "Oh great savings" Embarrassing So it does not sit well with my response to her even though it is fact Not my truth But fact Did not sit well A functioning addict is not the best she can do for herself Especially with the amount of money she is making simply because of the almost thirty years And is very capable with her income My nephews father had a quadruplet bypass He had is heart attack in his mid forties That was six years ago Was a workaholic Now unable to work He did not recover like some do And he called and made apologies for her It got nasty even in truth So I wasn't any better at the situation I couldn't bite my tongue And it is over once again If not till one of us dies I will pass on amends Ask my Father to forgive my behavior Now what happened this time around I was assure she was a different human being Not the case She robbed our biological parent out of Thirty thousand dollars About fifteen years ago Not standing for her trying to stiff me Puts my depression on another level And I don't want to hear IT'S THE HOLIDAYS ME
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"Thanks for this!" says: | EnglishDave (12-23-2015), RSD ME (12-25-2015) |
12-25-2015, 07:29 AM | #226 | ||
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hi eva. i just wanted you to know that you and your sister are in my thoughts and prayers. i hope you both feel better soon. take care my friend.
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12-25-2015, 08:23 AM | #227 | |||
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I have to butt out and step aside And to have such tiny family Is one thing But to be in conflict And for my health I will let her ex-husband My brotherinlaw handle it Again Peace be with you Love Me
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01-08-2016, 04:13 PM | #228 | |||
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I have put up with so much in the last two close to three days
I am sick of the slew of persons I have had go deal with I had it Up to the point my results for bloodwork done to find out why my veins are swelling to the point of color changes Something is causing this to happen Why does it have to be so difficult I'm sick of this What's wrong with my body What's making my veins swell and burst I sick of the whole blanking thing My kid is here to witness what happens Know one knows But IT is happening Really scared Waited four days for results Doctor leaves message with daughter Will call nothing found Wi call Monday Like that's just fine Don't have faith in the doctors Yet it's the best to have This all sucks Me
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"Thanks for this!" says: | EnglishDave (01-08-2016), RSD ME (01-10-2016) |
01-08-2016, 06:24 PM | #229 | |||
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Dear eva,
There are few things worse than negative tests when something is presenting as wrong. Where does your Doctor expect you to go from here? Are there more tests, or is he out of ideas? Surely, the next step is to see a Specialist of some sort - he must have an idea which Branch of Medicine to refer to. I am the worst person to give this advice, being that I have positive liver tests with no reason yet, but do try to stay calm and try not to worry. The answers will be found, the right questions just need to be asked. Dave.
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"Thanks for this!" says: | eva5667faliure (01-08-2016), RSD ME (01-10-2016) |
01-08-2016, 06:50 PM | #230 | |||
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i do everything expected and i have no where stand i am frightened and it is so non concerning what do they care what if it could happen in my brain my lungs who's to say i feel left in the dust no reason to get back to me as promised you get the picture you hang in
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