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01-19-2017, 09:41 AM | #421 | |||
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Grand Magnate
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its tough enough having to type
this is the second time in two days my writing is lost i follow the instructions to back and reload doing that wiped it away precious time of work gone sick of it me
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01-19-2017, 06:54 PM | #422 | |||
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Eva I had that issue for a while on my iPad, it's something to do with the amount of time you have been on the NT site & it registers you as being inactive so when you go to post it says you have to reload. To get round it, before I posted anything I pressed the key to select all, then copy and voila, in the event the page came up with reload I was able to log back in and just paste and then post. So once in the habit of copying what I intend to post just before posting I rarely have to go back and retype - I hope this little tip helps, I know just how darn frustrating it is to lose all the thought and effort you have previous put in
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01-20-2017, 09:13 AM | #423 | |||
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01-31-2017, 08:53 AM | #424 | |||
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Grand Magnate
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an immigrant myself
parents in refugee camp in south Africa and in the end final destination USA have been here since the age of five to protest in a orderly manner in this melting pot is gone many loosing sight in the process i my sister my parents had to wait in line until we were sworn in and have my certificate of citizenship naturalized through my parents i wanted my certificate and then to find the corruption in New Jersey vital statistics handing out bogus birth certificates had me on a roll and the entitlement of many who live in my neck of the woods is so OUT OF CONTROL then to have the problems including understanding most of the workers who have difficulties with the English language and to find out here in my neck of the woods licences A VERY IMPORTANT DOCUMENTATION THAT HELP THE POLICE WHEN RUNNING A PLATE given OUT to the persons in exchange for money and for these illegal activities i along with the rest of the population are subjected to even more chaos embarrassed at the women march and the behavior so confused to hear the responses many had no clue how to answer some question asked of them will not quote i'm sure many watched what i did i see that what i was taught when going to kindergarten taught how to sing after the salute to the flag and that song was "God Bless America' my home sweet home standing firm in this country and having walked in many shoes i am qualified I am doing what i can do for my country first in God i Believe in Jesus name Amen
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02-01-2017, 12:06 PM | #425 | |||
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Grand Magnate
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the politicians are messing with
THE PEOPLES LIVES while we wait fora mess of them on the pity pot and i have to teach my grandchild that grown ups can behave like babies taking a tantrum so many lairs so many who steal from this country this is not hear say this i have witnessed time and time again how refreshing to have someone who isn't afraid to clean out the HOUSE I AM A PROUD USA CITIZEN i speak read and write in my language i was five when i came into this country it was also the first wave of Cubans that entered in the 70's and when i started kindergarten i did not have the luxury as the Cuban students had a teacher for an entire class of children who only spoke Spanish and my grandchild is being held back as i know personally three generations in the USA and still do not speak the English language my sweet grandchild has been innocent to come home and ask me the following and i ask where are the educators mimma "some boy in my class told me the middle finger means a bad word" next mimma "what does sex mean" apologies in advance next mimma "what does nigger mean" and i can go on on top of all this it was explained to me by the principal that this all takes place during lunch i had to correct her it happened in class during relax time but what really angered me was the next thing she explained as i asked where are the lunch monitors where are the adults when this is going on "i am sorry, but they are hired and do not speak English" you read right i was just beside myself i hear the security guards hired by the city what i want to know how can a person learn a language if it isn't being practiced and used on school grounds the bus drivers the same problem why am i asked "why don't i learn how to speak Spanish" and when asked this question i respond in my language and tell them in my language "why don't you learn how to speak Hungarian?" NO ANSWER in this all i am now dealing with learned behavior and who is going to fix this problem and how dare i be told to learn the language by the way i have picked up the language as the majority came first i was left behind not only taught myself the English language while in kindergarten it was my Cuban friend Elizabeth who taught me what i know and picked up the rest as time went on so my question is why is there three generations living in the USA and NOT WANT TO LEARN THE ENGLISH LANGUAGE this i was told by them WRONG my children could not get a job in our home town because they needed to be bilingual i am spoken to not in English when entering a store or at a doctors office better yet over the phone REALLY ENOUGH ALREADY and call me raciest I DON'T THINK SO my fourth child is part Hispanic ENOUGH ALREADY my grandchild is being held back as the teacher has to help those who do not understand in this all my message is am i not in a country that speaks the English language in school and if "I" want to learn a different language there are elective classes i could take but to force me I DON'T THINK SO WHAT WILL SHE COME HOMEWITH TODAY me
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02-03-2017, 08:32 AM | #426 | |||
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Grand Magnate
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and a birthday gift to myself
happy birthday to me five years almost to the month as January 9, 2012 i had my double mastectomy my mother nowhere to be found what a terrible thing for that little girl inside that's always wondering what did i do why the woman who brings me to the world and to recently tell my baby sister she wasn't wanted by her she was to be aborted until my father intercepted the call from the hospital for the procedure i am 9 years at this point i already knew much don't expect to hear from her we three girls at one point in our life asked what was it like the day you went into labor with me she can't remember so she says not much leaving it at that a father who checked out 47 leaving blame is it me i don't think so at the top of my lungs this morning i sang a Doris Day song "Que Sera Sera" and the Frankie baby "i did it my way" and it felt awesome just awesome i am only given what i can handle parable or not i have to believe in goodness goodness kindness to get on the elevator and a timid fragile woman in every way taken aback when i said good morning having the courage to change the things i can when she looked into my eyes i could see the smile in them before she got off i said one moment at a time she said thanks got off on the 7th floor chances i will never see her again where is the honor for truth why are people afraid of the truth or being caught doing something they are not allowed to do yet knowingly ignore the rules and try and hide it not own up to it suffer the consequences that come with knowing YOU ARE BREAKING THE RULES, THE LAW, and you will be caught and then lie through their teeth swear up and down they didn't do that there was a time one said in video that isn't me my thought process believe it or not of my granddaughter the learned behavior i am dealing with i am a sinner we all are but as i got older this is what my assessment is in my own experience i am today trying to be the best i could be it was a tough day yesterday today is different i wake and wonder what is it going to be in the end and that be the will of Heavenly Father so i turn another year older a little girl that still lives is a bit wiser and blessed by Heavenly Father in Jesus Christ Amen
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02-05-2017, 08:03 AM | #427 | |||
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Grand Magnate
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My OBGYN looking into doctors he knows
Having the insurance I now have DOSENT get me far But I fight all the way through And hold them accountable I'm sure it has been figured out I have no problem when I have personally gone through something will not hold this tongue Doctors who stood before me and dropped their heads in shame To have been lied to buy the reconstructive doctor What my OBGYN isn't hearing If he finds me a really good doctor I will have them taken out And I want to have a symmetrical look A flat chest Only with a clean look Does this make sense Waiting for a happy feeling moment with this very broken body L4L5 hurt so badly Won't even even talk about my neck and shoulders The muscles in my body gone This beautiful body lost all its muscle Because I have been walking with a cane for the past five years the muscle in on calf is thinner than the other My head still keeping it afloat Having so many situations going on at once Am I coming or going I am so tired of the doctors My lungs hurt I woke up sometime last week And my tongue hurt You read right I'm like What the **** my tongue It lasted for two days I brutal on my mouth Having all my teeth And one cavity in my lifetime I brush at my tongue Sometimes a bit to hard Maybe it be the cause What a weird feeling Amazed at what the body can produce Just like that So Taking all one moment at a time Hoping to feel mentally better now OFF THE TAMOXIFEN we shall see We shall see Me
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02-06-2017, 09:49 AM | #428 | |||
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Happy Birthday, Eva.
I know you've had a difficult life and that lots of things can trigger bad memories for you... I'm sorry it was such a tough day Love, Kay |
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03-05-2017, 08:03 AM | #429 | |||
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Grand Magnate
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I need to let go
I need to say STOP I need God to push me around a bit I can't do it all And I get no help And this woman has been the rock for this family as far back as I can remember It is time for me to laugh smile be happy Not to worry worry and tell my children to stop A time has come when enough is enough Being pull in all directions go others and loosing myself is not what I want to allow anymore I need to not pick up the phone I need not to help them figure things out for them They all have their own journey so let them be Eva Let them not dump on me when crap hits the fan This is my life The one life on this earth As my body rots I must feed my spirit and continue to take care of me and MIT let others hurt or take my happiness from me I need to make me first after praising my Heavenly Father I need to laugh I miss laughing I need positive energy in my life With Jesus Christ my constant everything I have no true support I know I need And it hurts my feelings I can be forgotten that quickly My baby sister who has become my rock We both call upon Jesus Christ and accept what is put before us an leave the rest behind Happiness is my goal to laugh A huge belly laugh That would last and last can be a good thing Laughing my medicine I am responsible in what I let in my life No more depression I will take what Heavenly Father has in store for me I will try and do things with laughter I miss laughing Where did it go Where is that hard core belly laugh I have to capture it back I will let the doctors do their crane I will try and bring laughter back into my life One way or another The spring weather is here It feel awesome to watch the world tilt and watch the sun get closer and closer To all who know me I wish you all a belly laugh in your day I will get what I need when I let go of the garbage Not only mine but my families garbage Enough already Enough No more dumping your problems on my lap and think its "My job" Done with this strategy that does not work Because they still want to do things their own way Until they throw in the towel and understand they cannot get sober alone I have to step back and not get tangled in their chaos And not take on any help until they work on themselves It is so painful to watch So I have decided to not be involved physically either Out if sight out of mind to a point But I must for me And my own happiness Happiness laughter love and be loved in return Accept I must take this road alone I will I will push myself into a new way to start my very painful mornings I cannot count on them I must let this set in I have me my Heavenly Father The man we know as Jesus Christ sent in his image for our sins and debt in full As this body get older may my spirit increase in strength to get younger in spirit is to get closer I get to be with Heavenly Father This is for sure the way I want to live my life as it comes closer to and closer to a youthful spirit be what I achieve I am going to work on my happiness and to put that smile on my face No more sadness No more bad news No more sitting on the potty May depression be trumped by happiness and laughter Laughter For us all Blessings to us all Amen Me
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03-06-2017, 09:41 AM | #430 | |||
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Not ready to talk to him
He My son asks Or senses I'm distant I told him he was right And that I needed to get my thoughts together before we talk It's felt Me
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