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09-14-2017, 05:27 PM | #551 | |||
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I do not understand people today
I have had a long year of annoyance with the above tenant and her bizzarre behavior waking me up all hours of the morning Not able to sleep the tenant below for three days having her floors done the banging and hammering should stop by 4:00 pm I so sick of the rude people that have no decency I finally call the police dept I'm so done OMG IM SO DONE Eva is sick with a cold I truly feel like I'm losing it Really I am
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09-15-2017, 07:54 AM | #552 | |||
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Her to step up
She wants it and here goes 1:00 AM I text mom Eva is up sick with a cold vomiting To give the school a call by 7:00 provided her with the number to call She texted me back to confirm As I haven't slept in I don't know how many days attributing to my erratic fluctuations of my pressure Sending her a picture of Eva asleep with her vomit bucket with her favorite scent in it as like myself very sensitive to smells There are a very few she loves and it calms her They are soft like baby powder To add to this she is given a wipe with her choice of scent on it every morning as it calms her stomach She reminds me so much of myself we both have weak stomach Just a example and the experience I have Back to mom At 6:15 AM I sent her a picture of her as Eva still asleep with her bucket in her face I remind her to call by 7:00 AM TEXTED HER FOUR MORE TIMES No response I begging to call her 10 times no answer I call their house phone no answer So in the end I called the school to let them know she will be home In the mean time the father calls at 7:25 AM asking if everything is alright I tell him what happened And he begins to make excuses I told him to knock it off This is what she wants and it is 8:21 AM awaiting her mother to call me She is still sleeping I ask what do I do Do I look into having her home schooled This is what she asked for and I had to handle it I don't have to say what my pressure is Then after blocking Corissa Somehow she was able to call the cell phone and I was tending to Eva She called last night around 7:30 ish I did not pick up And while tending to Eva I missed the morning call Reluctantly I call She answers And the first thing out of her mouth was Why do you have me blocked on house and cell My response to her HOW DOES IT FEEL TO BE IGNORED She says not good I said it again How does it feel NOT GOOD I then tell her am I to be taken for a fool Do you think I would put up with what is perpetrated upon me and not do anything to stop it How does it feel Corissa She then says I'm in the bathroom and she tells me she would call back That was a half hour ago Again I ask what do I do The father is three weeks late with support Was suppose to come up with it yesterday Left with $62.00 paying all bills and rent for October I'm left with $62.00 Support is minimal and are late I do not get it Yet he can get his haircut biweekly I had shot hair at one time Since my retirement I have no funds to even get a hair cut So it has grown and am doing the best I can trimming what I can as it grows out And to think this doesn't add to the stresses is so upsetting I do without so much since becoming ill I just can't wrap my head around this all It's draining me of life And it must stop And yet I need someone to take her in the morning My only concern is she leave this home happy with no worries as the family adults just don't care It is now 8:44 no call from mother or Corissa And me and Eva have the best I have to offer her The best I can do And she knows She knows I'm her everything and tells me over and over again Thank you mimma for taking care of me Thank you I tell her no thank yous necessary I will alway do for you as long as God is in my heart Amen Heavenly Father hold me together together in this unpredictable day What to do Dear Father how much more How much more I must stop and just do I cannot fall to pieces She needs me And I will have to calm myself I will stop here and do some meditation READING THE BOOK THE WORD THAT WILL BE JUST FOR ME ON MY DAY 9:53AM NO CALL FROM EITHER
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09-15-2017, 01:13 PM | #553 | |||
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Mother to apologize
And understood all my concerns And from my youngest Wanted to know why she was blocked Asking her How did it feel Not good was the response I said multiplying that by infinity A horrible feeling So having unblocked I told her the second I am ignored I will shut her down I got a yes mom instantly It is by far a better place But a start Me
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09-15-2017, 05:44 PM | #554 | |||
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Once again
As she goes to bed with tears I want to punch a wall Oh how angry I am My body is killing me With so many days with no sleep Pressure not stable And it is so clear why And I tell myself Just breath Just breath My neck shoulders My knees My lower back My head my hands My feet That's pretty much the body from head to toe To say I wish I never had the surgery Not the case I had no choice But to be maimed as a result of the surgery Yeah you bet it all comes to a head Having to take the meds I do Yeah you bet 26 years of sobriety I want to say for what But I know better It be a lesson I know He's pulling me closer No doubt It is the only thing I have done right Me
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09-15-2017, 07:17 PM | #555 | |||
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Oh Eva, this is so not true! It truly is not the only thing you have done right. Your sobriety is right up there, but above all of that, you gave birth to a child who through her own selfish actions has gifted you in turn with the will to live!
You are a shining light in little Eva's life and a beacon of hope by the sound of things to your siblings. In the modern world marketing and their spin doctoring have shortened sentences to simple words to hit home truths to millennial's. Examples you will have seen in powerful advertising campaigns "Just be" - "Just do" so allow me to spin some truths to you.... "You are" what is right in this world a little Eva occupies. Without you, her would would be so much smaller. "In chaos there is peace". I hope you can find comfort in these photos I'm attaching.
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09-16-2017, 08:12 AM | #556 | |||
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Just know All was heard And thank you for reminding me me who I am and what I stand for With all my love Me
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09-17-2017, 11:04 AM | #557 | ||
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You are a kind and caring person Eva. And I am glad you are a my friend. Hugs.
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09-17-2017, 04:43 PM | #558 | |||
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I so sorry for the distance I think of so many I have come to know So sorry It is important at this so very difficult time Today as I heard many reasons to be concerned Cannot speak of it All I ask i for prayers Thatin a few weeks there will be relief to news that is so so so out of my control Oh dear God how prayers that all be not the case at this time It's so much And then the babies mother Not stepping up as that's what she asks for And falls short Happy to have you here for me friend Love Me
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09-22-2017, 09:29 AM | #559 | |||
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Is she that good and go as far as she did
To get as she put it "I need this more for me" Getting a text "Can I come home for a few days" What do you think my first question was "Are you okay" "Are you hurt" I need to come home And it all dissolved when I didn't have money to give but spent a gleeful night watching my grandchild and how the next few days could be like Getting all ready to register for school all changed when I couldn't give her money Gets on phone with the root of much what is going south Daddy with the money And changes what she asked for OMG What the f just happened I could go on and on and on Influenced by a young drinker Who prefers vodka To be 20 and have an acquired taste for vodka is a great concern On every level Asking my Heavenly Father to please not let go of me To help me go through this accepting what I CANNOT change And for it to not hurt so badly And for her to not fall to hard I believe the few understand what I mean Thank you That's all Me
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09-22-2017, 07:48 PM | #560 | |||
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Treating you with utter disrespect, so sorry Eva. No one should have to deal with behaviour like that.
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