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03-12-2015, 04:00 PM | #51 | ||
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EVA, HAVE YOU MADE YOUR APPOINTMENT WITH GYNY?? HE NEEDS TO CHECK LUMP. NOT SURE IF YOU STILL GET MAMOGRAMS; BUT AS YOU ALREADY KNOW, LUMPS DO NEED TO BE LOOKED INTO. PLEASE DO NOT WAIT. Gerry |
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03-12-2015, 05:46 PM | #52 | |||
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it's hard to get around with the snow and parking being a difficult thing to do and i do not want my car towed and it cost a fortune to use a cab Gerry the hurt doesn't stop it just doesn't stop and when i tell my sister she cries please don't leave us but in this woman life it never comes without a painful fight never i would love to have my life to be told it isn't fair yes i still get mammograms that will be coming right behind will be using my medicare red white and blue card my mammo done in local hospital i will gt on it love me
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03-12-2015, 06:25 PM | #53 | |||
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Dear Eve,
I repeat Gerry, get these lumps checked. I waited 3 years out of fear and self-denial. It is all the harder when this Blight messes with our meds, more when our heart messes with the Chemo that can be given. I am only clear 17 months, every bleed, every itch, every 'wrong' feeling brings my mind to the worst. That is what your Doctor is for, to make sure this is nothing and to get you on the right meds. Do not torture your mind waiting. You need to be well to brighten our days with talk of good times, of little Eva's development. Much love, Dave. |
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03-12-2015, 10:32 PM | #54 | |||
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FOREVER EVER YOUNG
LOVE me
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03-12-2015, 10:40 PM | #55 | ||
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03-17-2015, 11:04 AM | #56 | |||
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my heavy heart
loss of my job just a huge part of my identity robbed as a child as a young adult now as i entering my mid fifties with a brain that feels thirty five funky but true sad because so much wasted time as i doted over my children raised them to the best of my ability and did a awesome job they just don't like me sad me
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03-17-2015, 05:55 PM | #57 | |||
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Dear Eva,
Children are cruel and heartless like that. Of my Step Children, one is distant and uncaring, one is the nastiest, most selfish person to her Mother and myself, the third is sweet and caring. They were all brought up the same by both of us. Ignore the spite, they need you more than you need them - try turning your back on one of them once when they come, pleading. As to your brain being 35, mine is 23 in some things. I crave humour, have it on all the time. It doesn't make me happy, just takes the edge off the darkness. Comedy is a pleasant noise to block out thoughts. Live in your younger brain. Always remember, whatever happens there, you are loved and appreciated here. Dave. |
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03-17-2015, 10:11 PM | #58 | ||
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Eva, Sometimes we don't realized the repetition of the past can really be a turn off to our children. After a while they just don't want to hear it or deal with it any longer. My mother, whom I loved very much, just could not let go of the past and never let me forget what she went thru. I ached for the relationship we could have had. Sad. I have to be careful myself not to go there with my children. Dave mentioned comedy or uplifting thoughts. This can be good for us as well as those around us. Sending love & prayers, Gerry |
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03-18-2015, 10:37 AM | #59 | |||
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your beautiful the words you put together for me is so on the money i have very wonderful beautiful hearten people of such overwhelming stories those of us that suffer pain that brings me to those dark places it's one thing not to have a partner in life but like yourself it hurts to be touched no more hugs my granddaughter is the one that expresses empathy in such a meaningful way they have become cruel but the cruel mouth off from my eldest the one who had brain surgery and the ten years of depression as we went through her epilepsy difficulties my job to be there for her all my vacations days my personal sick days given to her over the ten years her high school sweetheart exhibits early his lack of work desires hanging on my daughters skirt and her SS benefits they are living with the in laws apartment in his room as a kid with my sick dog i listened i washed her body i changed her bed sheets giving her three fitted hospital sheets so she wouldn't sweat from the plastic hospital mattress the nurses loved coming in the room it smelled so fresh 19 days i slept in a chair there were other hospital stays where if i weren't there the two seizures while she was going to the bathroom and because her seizures are all the same as far as the body contorting her one leg would posture knee trying to reach chin immediate fall sure it was a job i had to help my child she was over the legal age but she wanted mommy and mommy was there i made it happen that you would have someone with you at all times oh what did she blurt out after her last Skyline session "it's your job you wanted to be a mother" this is true Dave you have managed to help me through a difficult day it's her birthday a tradition i started as they came into this world i honored and would give them the recognition by calling them each year the time they entered the world today my child took that away from me yes it was my decision not to pick up the phone yet i'm told i shouldn't have had children like i putting a note in their lunch box everyday all through their lives they always had the comfort of knowing i'll always be there i need to be a little selfish i am responsible for my happiness and having words from loved ones here is a good boost a great boost for your comforting words that wrap me like that big flannel shirt my God wears sending you a gentle and a day for you and your life love and to all a me
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03-18-2015, 11:10 AM | #60 | ||
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If possible, might be of help if you were able to let go of dwelling what most of us do as a matter of being a responsible parent without need to go back into all we have done for them.
It does not occur to me to look back on what I have done for my children; what I do often concentrate on tho is caring about their health, jobs, etc. What I have done for them just does not come up. I brought them into this world. The love and care for them is automatic. Just afraid all this darkens the depression you are going thru causing it to become even deeper. I only mention all this because I care about you and your family. Sometimes we need to do our best to control the dwelling on all that sorrows. Gerry |
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