How comforting it is to see I matter
I’m validated as a person who is worthy of others to be concerned
It is something that is void other then the unconditional love from my grandchild
I am okay
By the love of God and scripture
In all that is happening around me by my family is just to much to handle alone and it is only with the grace of Heavenly Father talking to me through scripture
Did you ever go through something and you pick up the book and just randomly open it
And the Lord is speaking to my concerns
That those who mean the most to me are not doing okay and are trying to pull me into their problems
Not to get me wrong
It is only for the spirit that I try to keep close to me
Can I put one foot in front of the other
I am saddened by the mother to Eva
My child
Who I have to say is so gone on so many levels I am frozen at what she is capable of
My son going through a rough spot and last minute can me and boyfriend Jay stay with you
And at first he asks if I want a hair cut
As his boyfriend is a professional hair stylist
And not to soon after that
And explaining what his sibling my youngest came home Thursday with the confession I was worried of
But a new start
Happy to be home took off Saturday to “help” someone against my better advise of priority
Was shocked at the behavior
Many factors to why it was just not a good thing
And my boy says
Throw her butt out
It upset me to the core
All of it
All of them going through stuff they put themselves into
And only when things go wrong
Or not how they thought things were going to work out
The one that surprises me most is the babies mother
What’s happened to this family

My mother
Who I call to no answer to wish her happy birthday

My son just springing stuff so soon on me and advising to send his sister on her way
No I don’t want to put up with her crap
But I’m not done helping her
Like I did the others
She just came away from terrible stuff

As far as my broken body
It is getting worse
And the crappy thing is it’s not just one thing
Yup I’m scared it’s happening quickly

I will be seeing a vascular doctor
And some more in the list I’m not in a rush
And money not there
So prioritize
But there is something going on
I feel it

Decorating the house with Eva
And the smallest tree I ever had
But remember it’s for my grandchild
An she loved it
The tree 4’
I will put it on a table
And make decorations with her
Will do it on construction paper
Something
Any suggestions
Ideas welcomed

May you all be touched by an angel
But by the grace of Heavenly Father
I am putting one foot in front of the other
Will be going out with baby sister Eva suppose to be Corissa
Out for thanksgiving
Wishing all a healthy happy one
Love
Me
I will try and post even just to say hi
Love from someone who feels your love
Me

So very glad to "see" you! We all have been concerned about you

And found that she is more involved with my son and partner
All was known the eve before
And it not happen
The one thing is Corissa stayed
She seen what happened
She was witness
Not a thing did I know but it was me who confronted my son
And no contact about me getting my hair trimmed
Home with my two princesses
Sad

Most recent pics, the one of Eva and me was taken today, we went bowling.

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THANK YOU!!

It’s evident in the picture with Eva I am in pain
My right back hurts badly
Don’t know if it’s lung
I need to go
But don’t want to
It hurts when I breathe
So I will call the pulmonologist ask if I should come in
It hurts
Don’t want to
But will call
It was a blast watching her play
She had fun
I had fun watching
She was so happy
That’s what counts
Right

I don’t want to do this
But how can I not
So made the appointment
And we shall see
We shall see
Then to the vascular doctor
And next one dr at a time
Me

Added another 25 mg
That’s a total of 75mg in a day
Okay
Me

Kate’s killer found not guilty
Lost
In this horrible way it was presented
Not a word I wonder why
That he had rap not brought up in court before the killing
A few choice words I’m sure all could imagine
Appalled
Appalled

And I’m just holding on
Corissa has been growing up
Her girlfriend from Florida visiting for the holidays
She is giving it some of her best
Has a way to go
Son and daughters hoping they are happy
Eva doing well
She is happy
All A’s and A+
Has trouble talking
She doesn’t get to socialize much other then in school
Can’t blame her
To the vascular doctor now
And the new year is here
OMG
another year
Are you pleased Heavenly Father
Are you pleased
I am going on with you at my side
You will handle it in the end all from the beginning
I am happy who I have become
Are you pleased
Amen
Let sadness and disparity be gone as you are in control
I will be happy
Amen