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Old 12-02-2018, 11:14 AM   #721
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Default Calling off the hook from facility

My baby sister called as she calls her too to get to me
Asking the facility to have her stop
I called my granddaughters lawyer for advisement
Tomorrow I will go to the court and file a report
And then to the child support department to take action
As this is month two no support
My two sisters have been helping
This is so outrageous
But am forced to do what I must
It just never stops
And I am so depressed over the crap
It must stop
Eva is doing sooooo well in school at home
Just leave us alone
Why is not a question to ask mentally ill parents
They want each otherís insanity
And want to make more babies
I was floored when she called me to tell me she is pregnant
And then it be false
Iím so tired of this all
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Old 12-04-2018, 09:09 PM   #722
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Filey report
She put it together
Worded it perfectly with the little time and space
I was in awe how to the point and how much was said
So I pray all will go accordingly
May the arms of Heavenly Father hold me ever so tight
That it be the only thing I feel
I will not ever ever reach out to my children ever
For them to forget how all really was
They are not babies
Manipulating they are
I go back in Tim and think of what I sacrificed
All for them and for what
I feel at time I have failed them
Just feelings not the fact of the matters
My body may be broken in everyway
But my mind doesnít play tricks
May my granddaughter live happy in my care
So does so well in school
I am in love with her
She is a awesome kid of child
May I always be able to keep that going in her life
I pray that depression doesnít visit me first thing when I stir
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Old 12-23-2018, 08:16 AM   #723
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How sad to have to leave the comforts of my own home
Not to be bothered or harassed is just not okay
But if this is the only way towards peace so be it
Will be spending Christmas with my baby sister
Mother and father did not follow through and mail their child support
But used my sister as their delivery system
Little did my baby sister know not to do their job
But whe the court date January 8th will just be one more thing to show how laxed they are to her needs
How or why my daughter thinks being involved with a man who has no problem calling me and voicing his sinister ways and tell me how he will cut her up put her in suitcases and doesnít care if he goes to jail
This the father of my granddaughter
And she makes excuses for him
Blames herself is so sad
A horrible human being he is still to this day
I cannot condone this behavior and I never will
In todayís world not far from my fathers time in 1980 when he took a gun and killed himself
I thank Heavenly Father that he didnít kill us first
It is close to my life as I lived it
To say he isnít capable of doing such a desire to void of my child is foolish for anyone to think not
And she tries and tries to ram him down my throat
For my granddaughter to remember her father express in one of their arguments while the other grandmother who was supposed to be supervising them did not remove my grandchild and these are the words that are burned into her brain
Your mother needs to die
Imagine her coming back home to me in fear
A childís father who tells her she is the most boarding child in the world
That daddy scares the kids in the park
That daddy pushes his mother physically to harm her
To call my granddaughter a lier
To teach her to lie
To tell her she has a big nose
And would ask me occasionally looking in the mirror
ďMimma do I have a big noseĒ
Already body shaming her
And I will do everything in my power to protect her
She says she doesnít want to talk to them because they argue when she is on the phone
So I will not force her
And now they accuse me of brain washing her
My daughter forgets so much
The last time I attempted to bring mother and daughter together
I suggested we meet once a week at a diner in public
Her response
Iím not ready Iím not ready
That be the last of it and things just got worse
Because I of all needed to get a call saying she is pregnant
Still to this day donít know if she is or not
But why tell me donít worry youíll live this baby like you live who is in my care already
To think she would bed with a horrible being just baffles me
As sick as this may sound
My other children tell me they will not have children
Relieved I am
To bring children into this world is not a place for them
When I have a grown parent who tells me at a Christmas play show me who you son is so I can beat the s**t out of him
To that I said
I see what kind of human you are pick on children
I was floored
I got to school early to sit at the back wall to be out of the way for people who I donít walk fast enough for them
A kind man who sat next to me came to my defense
This coming from a parent
I wasnít about to make a scene and called the principal and officer over a quickly took care of business
Sick of this cruel world and the parents who are the teachers to their children
Oh how Christ Jesus is missing in their hearts

To step away from my babies and not allow them to hurt me anymore IS the hardest thing I ever had to do

It depresses me terribly
But I be held by the most high
Jesus
Hold me so tight that it be the only thing I feel
Amen
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Old 01-11-2019, 05:06 AM   #724
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Went to superior court
Full circle
Like when I got divorced
And was seeking a restraining order
Never worked then
But to stand before a hearing officer with evidence
Not recent enough for them
But oh did it show all and what I was dealing with
Restraining order not granted
Ask if I wanted to go before a judge
Said yes
I felt like a fool
Told yo get a lawyer
Doing the right thing just doesnít seem to matter
Contacted the guardian lawyer Magen for my granddaughter
Told me not to worry
I went down there to find out my daughter and the father who just for an example tell my grandchild
ď you the most boring kid in the worldĒ
Thatís just a taste
The last thing my granddaughter remembered was a altercation and he told her
ďI hope your mother diesĒ
So he got wiser over these years
I did too
But because I just turned the answering machine off
And told him if they came to the house I would call the cops
Is where the lapse in time
But the court did not want to hear that
I was mortified
Beside myself
Was victimized over and over and over
So they are bringing me to court
My son 35 a heroin addict asked if he could stay here
I told him no
Wrote a letter on behalf of my daughter the I was lying when I told the court he would get into a altercation with my daughter call me tell me how he will chop her up into pieces put her in suitcases and doesnít care if he went to jail
Write I made that up
Beside myself
Whatís wrong with them
I donít know and I have given up on any relationship with them
I have a incident report dats back 2007 when I was still working nights saying how he will come to my job kill me first then kill my daughter
This didnít matter to the courts
So beside myself
But I will get a lawyer
And do all I must for my granddaughter and myself
Done
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Old 01-28-2019, 05:00 AM   #725
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With everything that is going on
Help me Jesus I ask
To have turned away from my family
The most difficult thing I ever had to do
And take care of my granddaughter and myself
May Heavenly Father hold me tightly while I stand before the judge for my grandchild
So tired of it all
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Old 02-23-2019, 12:23 PM   #726
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Get the better of me
Keep me above water
Hold my right hand as I hold my granddaughter hand
I will never give up or give in
I have but one who knows my everything
That Heavenly Father rules
I am given exactly what Heavenly Father my needs
There is so much going on
Never did I think it would be as it is
Yet it is
And I donít have to go to the the negative
I will follow
I will speak his name
I pray with my granddaughter for those who do not have Jesus in their heart
This world has stopped believing
Nobody can deny that there was a man who walked this earth
And his name is
Jesus Christ
Crucified and died for the sins of the world
In Jesus I trust
May I never forget
And may I give it away
I am saddened by my children who have not a clue who rules
I did all I could and will not do anymore
If unconditional love is not in their heart but evilness and to hurt
I want no part of it
And the mother in me is what died

This is what I have to let go of
This is what I must let go of
I look forward to going home
When he calls for me
I still have work to do
And a child to raise with the love of God
Amen
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Old 02-26-2019, 04:18 AM   #727
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Who think they know better
When they donít
In fact to understand is to listen to all the facts
Not just selective
And because one is curious
Iíve been a child of being victimized by my parents
Both

Was sexually abused by my father while my mother turned her head

A father who committed suicide

A mother who told all three of her children thy were never wanted

I am no
Am not my mother

If anything I over protected
Never let a man come into my home and to ever come between me and my children
I sacrificed much of myself for my children
They owe me nothing
Appreciation would be nice
Understand even better
No Iím not my mother

Iím fact I wish I had a mother like me for myself

And I have to now go through crap
Having a ungrateful daughter who did not put her daughter first
Who doesnít even know twice she wold have been taken from her

She is has Aís across the board
Happy
Has the love of Jesus in her heart
She is old enough to express herself
And she did to her doctor
And DYFS workers over and over

And the judge is curious

Whatís wrong with people
He wasnít interested in anything I had to show how the fathers behavior is like
And the choice my daughter makes to be with him
Would not grant me order of protection

Iíve been through this already with my ex husband
And calling the police
The response then was
ďWe canít do anything till he gets thereĒ

I am disgusted by and with them all
Not one of them involved in my grandchildís life
Self absorbed in their nasty behavior they all have fallen into
And I canít look at them anymore
They hurt robbed and abused me enough

Enough already

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Old 05-14-2019, 05:35 AM   #728
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My heart just wants to give up
Not looking forward to an ablation
Fear of all the failed surgeries
Just to much to swallow
Having to decrease the flacainide that keeps my heart beating NAR the max 300mg causing side affects
Adema a no no to the heart
Thing is all that has go wrong with this heart is a direct result of stress
It all caught up and nothing seems to get it to beat in NSR
I have let go of my family
My youngest here home to help
My granddaughter fears what her parents are forcing her to do
She has no interest to be in their company
And they just donít care what her feelings are about and how they got to where they are
She is eight
A mind of her own
Back a forth to court
Next date the 28
So looking forward to saying what I need to say
I trust nobody not the judge or council
As I am a child who knows what itís like to be forced into something that I will never forget
A father who sexually abused me and my middle sister
A mother who knew and looked the other way
She forced us on him
He killed himself as Iím sure he knew I was ready to confront him
A mother who told us all we werenít wanted
Beat up by him like I was a boy
My marriage all for the wrong reasons
Smart enough to get out young
Dedicated my life to my children who are nowhere to be found
Wouldnít want them around me
Do not like who they are today
But I can look in the mirror and am good with what kind of mother I was to them
They still cannot see the sacrifices I made
Thatís okay
The day will come
For now I have one more to raise
A honor student every marking period
Well rounded
Happy
Yet a mother who puts her man before her child
That was never something I did
In fact I wish I let myself be loved
There were a few who were worthy
But put my children first
So sad to have gotten this far in life and my body failing me
I keep Heavenly Father close as I can
Eva loves to pray with me
She too prays for a miracle
That her Mimma be healed
A loving child
And I fell in love with her and will always fight for her happiness
Lots going on
One day at a time
Me
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Nursing sister fresh full right knee replacement
Left to be done next
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