Dear Eva,
You may be fumbling
Through the darkness
But He is your Light.

You may feel like
You are drowning
But We are your Liferaft.

Dave.

dear Dave
hope you are doing well
thank you in humbled abundance
after today i just don't get it
the only time i am out is when
i go to my doctors
yesterday was just unbelievable
really
nobody hurt just the car
don't know where to shove it anymore
don't want to shove
don't want it
sure need that life raft
may we some day
be relieved of our pains
i believe in miracles
thank you friend
me

This depression has me locked up
all by myself
There is no one
No one
God why do I feel like this
Brother what must your pain
have been like
I'm so weak so embarrassed
So alone so sad all ending with pain
of every kind
Me

Eva,

I pray you will soon have someone to share your experiences, secrets, etc. with. This would be a "best friend". Is there someone in your building that you might like to share a cup of coffee with; possibly getting to know better?

So sorry you continue to endure this sadness and depression alone. Glad at least you have NT to know you are cared about very much.


Gerry

dear Gerry
it is here like in my fellowship
do i find the understanding of pain
not the emotional pain
but the everyday physical pain
the blindness blows me away
my mother oh how disappointing
my children how disappointing
and my granddaughter Will be returned to her
sober parent
i have nobody in this building other than those who want
my services
nosy bodies

it is important that i do have one who i can invite and have

it will take time
time
slipping away
i love you
i care about you


is it over
my life over
me

Oh sweet Lady you have so much Love within yourself. Please reach down deep inside and find it again.

At one point you were asking about suggestions on meds....have you ever tried Paxil ? I had to increase from 20 mg a day to 40 a day when all this SFN started but it has really helped my mood.

You have been through so many struggles in your life but you have so much more life to live.

I pray your 'someone' comes to you.

All our love to you sweet Lady.

Debi in Georgia

Dearest Eva,

The causes are unjust,
The physical pain
Excruciating
The emotional pain
Intolerable.

But…

Family has need
Of You
We have love
For You
He has purpose
In Your Life.

Dave.

i am tortured by my family
my children
by my children
i am in argument with my seventeen year old daughter
who i have done nothing for but be there for her in eveyrway
why don't i have to live in a filthy house because she is just so lazy
no of the turd is mine
can't get anyone of them to shop for food
eat what's there

this one i not gong through it

none of the **** is mine
i live in my blanking room
i have no blanking life
they hate and hate
and now my daughter says
just leave me alone
just leave me alone i don't want to talk to
nobody
thats what this lady just was told
leave her alone

oh i sorry did not have hundreds to give her
just like her father did
my card meant crap
crap; crap
what the hell i i living for
what the hell
i did not do a blanking thing to this child to **** on me like such
in ant normal household
one tidies up after one self
not the case here
selfish
unbelievably selfish
if there were enough cold water left to drink
it wouldn't be shared
she would drink it all
there is no more tolerance
none of them like me
so what the hell
i have to be on constant alert
whats going to happen next

IT'S ME
THERE IS NO OTHER EXPLANATION
IT'S ME
me

......

but what else
i'm sorry mommy
i didn't mean it
feeling badly for her
oh the words
and sounds echo
i love you mommy
how about like
do you like me
this is something
i hope to have earned
this just isn't okay
to be told
i love to argue with you mom
i'm lost
me