I did not want to share this, but above the numbness and parasthesia in my feet and legs, I have been getting needle-sharp, tortuous pains spreading up to my torso. It has been over a week, either side of my Infusion - nowhere else to go with meds. You are not alone!
New pains, increased pains, affect our Depression big time. On top of this you have your family and your poor dog. A slide in Mood is not surprising.
I will not tell you to cheer up, but you can try to look at the positives. Little Eva is your Light - use that. Your minor victory clearing your useless Insurance. Do as I do and watch Comedies on tv. They will not change Moods, but a laugh or chuckle can bring a little relief, no matter how fleeting.
I have never been one for making lists, I find them pointless, depressing exercises, but you write well - with feeling. Keep expressing yourself here and know your Friends are supporting you.

Dave.

Unfortunately replaying all the sadness and looking back to bring to light what sorrows to a depth that can bring one's depression even deeper.

Dave has a point when he mentions what might lift his spirits us. For each, it is different; but I try not to let myself go into the dispairing thoughts; but thoughts that might be more uplifting. Dwelling in sorrow; only too often leads to more sorrow and depression.

Dearest Eva, I pray you can look at the good you have done and things that delight you; especially one who sings "You are my sunshine".


Gerry