May all those who touched my life
Forever remembered
Happiness is my wish for all
Good bye
Me

Eva are you with loved ones? You sound like you shouldn't be alone right now, it's been a tough week, month, year for you I know and I wish I could say with certainty it will get better. Truth is we don't know, but we keep trying. Do stay strong, don't go, you are right in you have touched the lives of many, I'm one.

It ALL is just way much
And I can't find a doctor who will
help me with all of it
As I do what is in my power
And leave the rest in the hands of Heavenly Father
I am broken on just so many levels
I am just getting so tired
I have done my very best
And am given more to deal with
I will try
With all my being
Me

Sending you warmth, love and virtual hugs my friend. Is it possible to ask your last doctor to refer you to another?

doctors are leaving there practice
Since losing my private insurance from a job i could not return to and becoming a SSDI recipient has been a enormous challenge
I have tried and tried and tried and tried till there wasn't anything
left
The inept education on the other end of the phone who cannot answer any of my questions
This is year two having to apply for food stamps submitting all necessary documents and questions answered but year two again THEY royally screwed up once again
One letter comes in saying we are approved
And another that followed by one day as per post mark claim THEY DID NOT RECEIVE the recertification application I returned the requested documentation made sure i dotted my I's and crossed my T's then i immediately made a copy of the application with the date sentence sent it out quickly yet the response I get is if I do not fill out said application it will be terminated
Just like that
Will be calling agency tomorrow
And pray this will be rectified in a speedy manner

What the **** is going o
I have zero
Nothing to take care of my child my grandchild
It is scary
My previous place of employment refusing to give me what is rightfully mine
And here I am
Trying to keep it ALL TOGETHER
There is nobody on a professional as far as mental health i will not put myself in a system that doesn't know if they are coming or going
A system so broken
I fear the future
How my place of employment is refusing me a "early retirement pension" BASED ON TERMINOLOGY
I YET TO HEAR FROM THE PENSION DEPARTMENT
I am scared
Very scared
I cannot find a doctor for myself
The system S.U.C.K.S.
Many things are falling apart
What to do

Having so much to deal with
Is more than I ever imagined in my life
All a new again
May our health insurance look better sooner than later
Optimistic I am
Empowered I am
In Christ Jesus who wraps his arms around me
when at my lowest
Pulled out of the abyss over and over and over again
A family I am responsible for
A family who needs me now more than ever
My relationship with my eldest on a higher plane
I am in love with my babies
Babies no more
But will always be my babies
Together we will be soon again
Our dogs ashes were taken care of and will be near
Oh how I miss him
It gets harder and harder as time goes on
But find it in me to still put one foot in front of the other
Home bound
As this body has a mind of its own
Painful it is to the point of getting sick
Hard to keep food down
Swallowing a issue
Blood pressure still not under control
Prays meditation breathing and stretch as best I can
No life outside from home
Phone is my contact in the world
No I don't want to feel anymore
For it is not a way I would entertain relief
That is not an option
So one day at a time
And calling upon my protector
I will survive
Till my last breath
Me