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11-02-2016, 08:06 AM | #1 | |||
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And I can't find a doctor who will help me with all of it As I do what is in my power And leave the rest in the hands of Heavenly Father I am broken on just so many levels I am just getting so tired I have done my very best And am given more to deal with I will try With all my being Me
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11-02-2016, 02:20 PM | #2 | |||
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Sending you warmth, love and virtual hugs my friend. Is it possible to ask your last doctor to refer you to another?
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"Thanks for this!" says: | eva5667faliure (11-06-2016), PurpleFoot721 (11-03-2016) |
11-06-2016, 07:30 AM | #3 | |||
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Since losing my private insurance from a job i could not return to and becoming a SSDI recipient has been a enormous challenge I have tried and tried and tried and tried till there wasn't anything left The inept education on the other end of the phone who cannot answer any of my questions This is year two having to apply for food stamps submitting all necessary documents and questions answered but year two again THEY royally screwed up once again One letter comes in saying we are approved And another that followed by one day as per post mark claim THEY DID NOT RECEIVE the recertification application I returned the requested documentation made sure i dotted my I's and crossed my T's then i immediately made a copy of the application with the date sentence sent it out quickly yet the response I get is if I do not fill out said application it will be terminated Just like that Will be calling agency tomorrow And pray this will be rectified in a speedy manner What the **** is going o I have zero Nothing to take care of my child my grandchild It is scary My previous place of employment refusing to give me what is rightfully mine And here I am Trying to keep it ALL TOGETHER There is nobody on a professional as far as mental health i will not put myself in a system that doesn't know if they are coming or going A system so broken I fear the future How my place of employment is refusing me a "early retirement pension" BASED ON TERMINOLOGY I YET TO HEAR FROM THE PENSION DEPARTMENT I am scared Very scared I cannot find a doctor for myself The system S.U.C.K.S. Many things are falling apart What to do
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11-15-2016, 01:24 PM | #4 | |||
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Having so much to deal with
Is more than I ever imagined in my life All a new again May our health insurance look better sooner than later Optimistic I am Empowered I am In Christ Jesus who wraps his arms around me when at my lowest Pulled out of the abyss over and over and over again A family I am responsible for A family who needs me now more than ever My relationship with my eldest on a higher plane I am in love with my babies Babies no more But will always be my babies Together we will be soon again Our dogs ashes were taken care of and will be near Oh how I miss him It gets harder and harder as time goes on But find it in me to still put one foot in front of the other Home bound As this body has a mind of its own Painful it is to the point of getting sick Hard to keep food down Swallowing a issue Blood pressure still not under control Prays meditation breathing and stretch as best I can No life outside from home Phone is my contact in the world No I don't want to feel anymore For it is not a way I would entertain relief That is not an option So one day at a time And calling upon my protector I will survive Till my last breath Me
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11-15-2016, 08:22 PM | #5 | ||
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11-16-2016, 08:49 AM | #6 | |||
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I have never had problems with anyone in the building I love in
I live with a very disturbed person above me It is five years I am in this building Police have been called out all hours of the morning She is not well and I have educated myself about the rules of the building I have evidence recordings and the awaited reports from the police station to submit to management and enforce them to do their job I have contacted the the proper authorities and building management and Office of Fair Housing Equal Opportunity A few days ago receiving a call from them and will help me in the situation I am tired of holding those who are responsible to take action I came from a building that was in the end taken away from the owner to be It took ten years of my life I have made a difference in this world Only I am sick now I need my rest At 4:40 this morning awakened called the authorities When they came as they have come in the past were gracious Listened to the audio of the noise disturbance that showed date and time There are several recordings of her irrational behavior Have found her at my door on two occasions All the above in the hands of management This is how my morning started And will do all I can to make her stop It is out of control I do not trust management for personal reasons Upon moving I was approached by several people who live in my building and the questions that were asked of me by the tenants "How much money did you pay to get in this building" The other question is "How did you get into a two bedroom apartment" My car has been vandalized upon asking for a handicap spot Submitted all required documentations with my plaque Camara that would show who keyed my car was not available according to management This told me enough to keep an eye on them closely Just another thing on my plate My Jesus Christ and Heavenly Father the Holy Spirit keep me strong while taking on possible changes May this be the task at hand for many who live here in fear One day at a time Body broken and tired My mind constantly working Awaiting reports form all the times I had to call the police to ask her to knock it off We had two meetings with management After the second meeting that night I had to call the police again Only now incriminating herself by leaving a note at my door Stating "I apologize and don't blame you for call the police" Enough already Limited sleep I do not have to express how important it is for a sick body Not to mention my mind Never ending May I be used to make a difference Don't want to feel anymore Amen
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11-17-2016, 06:49 AM | #7 | |||
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Stripped of a way of life I still hold on to apparently
Having to clean up the mess tiny metal flecks having to saw through a metal entrance door Two large gashes in my floor I had put down when moving in Just cried the entire time My OCD kicked in big time And they aren't done yet Awakened again at three with a thump that seemed to be like a bowling ball Letter to be sent to the above tenant As I was assured by management Allowing me to see it I hope this will put an end to her Lets call it a tick As she apparently isn't well It is so out of control My blood pressure 169/100 And am on BP meds My mind My mind To calm my mind So want to shut it down So don't want to feel anymore So badly don't want to feel anymore Yet I have a reason for existing I will never kill myself as I still wonder What was he feeling when he took his life at 47 I can't imagine to pain sorrow sadness whatever I will never know But this I know for sure If I can put one foot in front of the other And make it through the day I pray my children will too I have a broken body That reminds me every moment of my day It shouldn't be like this But it is So with a prayer and hope I manage to make it to put my head on my pillow to sleep And then only to be awakened in a very bad way May Jesus Christ wrap his arms around me and fill my Spirit with calm Heavenly Father the Holy Spirit Come into my being In Jesus name Amen Me
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