for it is all pain
all sadness
all crap hitting the fan
i don't want to be the go to person
i want to go on
i am lost in this depressing world
i have no desire for sadness to plague me first thing
waking up all hours of the night
crying feeling like turd

hands and feet do not function upon waking
my fingers they are such a necessity my feet
upon standing i be doing the shuffle

too sit on the potty
is pain as squatting has become more difficult
my physical life is declining as the hours move on
my life prior from my becoming ill
I WAS Wonder Woman
guess what the operative word is
capable of doing so much
now
it hurts to fart from the back up
burp from my neck down

heck to speak of such things
sick
really sick
i qualify

i just do not want to be that negative mean WOMAN

why have i given up

i want to be happy

just not happening