You better be taking care of your grandchildren
Who are living
And the ones who didn't make it
You make me sick today
Sick
I will never throw in the towel
Like you did
The only joy I have in my life
My granddaughter
My children
My two sisters
Nephew
I let many go to do a job I wanted to take on
They have been shorted in life by their fathers
They abandoned them when they were babies
Just to spite me
They left them
And
As you robbed me of my natural process to becoming a young woman
You violated me and my sister
F****d us up
As my baby sister had to see the gun you killed yourself with
Today I wish I could have pulled the trigger
Todays new pain is just to much
Another reason why I hate you today
You better be watching over them babies who never made it in this family
You lowlife coward
Do your F*****g job
I did my best
God forgive us and the terrible choices we make because we try to fill that void that ONLY YOU KNOW
Only to suffer
And suffer
I gave up what only you know Father
I could not be a father to my girls
Nor not know how to be a father to my son
I am sure you are pleased at most of my child rearing
I feel good about the job I did
But we all suffer "THAT VOID"
And I know what it's like to dedicate my all
Good bad or indifferent
But as for my crappy father
Make him work
And take care of the babies that didn't make it in this family
Me