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12-16-2014, 11:01 AM | #1 | |||
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for it is all pain
all sadness all crap hitting the fan i don't want to be the go to person i want to go on i am lost in this depressing world i have no desire for sadness to plague me first thing waking up all hours of the night crying feeling like turd hands and feet do not function upon waking my fingers they are such a necessity my feet upon standing i be doing the shuffle too sit on the potty is pain as squatting has become more difficult my physical life is declining as the hours move on my life prior from my becoming ill I WAS Wonder Woman guess what the operative word is capable of doing so much now it hurts to fart from the back up burp from my neck down heck to speak of such things sick really sick i qualify i just do not want to be that negative mean WOMAN why have i given up i want to be happy just not happening
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12-16-2014, 08:32 PM | #2 | |||
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I will feel for you.
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12-17-2014, 06:17 PM | #3 | |||
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dear Dave
if you could arch your back as much as you can reach your arms to the sun feel it enjoy it me
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12-17-2014, 08:00 PM | #4 | |||
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Alas, my back is bent and broken,
I cannot raise my arms to the sun, Huddled and cold I lay here, Yet, still I feel your warmth. |
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12-18-2014, 08:26 AM | #5 | |||
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thank you you understand as many do i so am happy to know you and to learn of your Spirit don't ever loose it i thought i let things go and turn it over to God i am just so angry cannot hold that knife and delve into my passion cooking taken away i am a sap right now again thank you for your positive vibe You are my blessing today Amen me
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12-20-2014, 04:19 AM | #6 | ||
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You are not the negative mean woman !
I feel your pain....been in bed most of this week. I had been doing pretty well and have no idea what happened but out of the blue I was down and out. Only got up to eat and use the bathroom and it hurts my hand when I wipe after I tt ! No giving up you hear ? You are a very strong woman and have always shown that in your writings. It's ok to be down just don't stay there my friend. Please let us know how you are doing because we care about you. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Debi from Georgia |
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12-20-2014, 10:27 AM | #7 | |||
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how have you been dealing with
the ever caring devil that gets to screw with me quite a bit for a very long time and it baffles me that God will allow him to screw with me for so long not months most my life like i written in the past a gray cloud over my family i am ever so sorry you are bed ridden that makes me sad there is so much laundry a sixteen year old who is the laziest of all my children and in puts a strain on our relationship things that are expected especially in the common areas this is a job in itself do you have a loved one that cares and listens (STILL) as we go through what we do my eldest daughter Saraeve my angel expressed how angry she is at my illness this from a woman whose life was cut at the knees @ 23 she was kicking butt had to change her career she is a recognized poet and a publishing company will be publishing a "BOOK" that's is right a book how awesome is that a epileptic 2 brain surgeries removal of part of her occipital lobe removed the trade off permanent blindness 10 years of depression as she still suffers it was not successful and now has a VNS implant in her chest area she too suffers clinical depression i have four children and a grand mama i'm called mimma i hope your funk leaves you in one breath dear Lord let debi and myself feel some relief in Jesus name thank you for being a friend and has made me understand she too is in a awful funk sending you hugs of love me
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12-28-2014, 01:07 AM | #8 | ||
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I'm Grammy to my grandchildren...ages 8 to 17. My son lost his way in June but found us again this month. He had to find his way back by himself. Nothing I could do for him at that point. Finally stood up for myself for the first time ever with either of my kids. After what I've been through I realized I have to protect myself, my sanity, my happiness. I think of you often and hope you get relief. Your daughter is an amazing woman ! I know you are so proud of her. And yes, I have a 'someone' to talk to. I also have a wonderful daughter that listens to me, cooks for me and is who I rely on for almost everything. She has strong shoulders that girl of mine. Take care and know I'm thinking of you sweet Lady Debi from Georgia |
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12-28-2014, 02:14 PM | #9 | |||
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well the days of a new year i upon us shortly
the cold is here to much to do just to get ready to go anywhere my eyes open find i have slept in fetal position all night then to stretch out my body take my morning meds with hot coffee to get it in my system as quick as possible and strong coffee with the headache i have every morning doctors orders rather than taking otc pain relief and then i'll pinch the skin between my my thumb and pointer finger try it sometimes especially when it's kicking my gut is empty waiting for my belly laughs i do not know what happened to me in every way does this mean the devil gets a piece of me it is not him i seek it is my Almighty Father with that worn flannel shirt that has the smell of true love my angels who are my protectors as i ask the angels assigned to watch over each of my family members i do not know why i am in this terrible funk well the years are coming and going hope to still have the opportunity for love in my life from a human being who is open to getting to know and come to love who i am in Jesus name who can make anything happen the happiness of my children priority yet i don't want to be forgotten Father i love you and must trust in you those who feel as i do and cannot shake it don't do anything at all there Will be another day love me
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12-28-2014, 05:01 PM | #10 | ||
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Who would ever forget your dear, sweet, wonderful writings ?
You walk with the Father and keep the faith for a lot of us on here. Good things are coming your way. I have faith. Debi from Georgia |
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