Understand

To days ago went and took the car for a spin with a long time friend
He checked my concern
And said NOT to worry

What I want to say
Is I too went into my old town
A place I do not recognize there are so many changes
Going to the pharmacy I've been with since my eldest was born
Thirty five years

SAMe is a product I would have had to take with other supplements

I feel your sadness
I feel it for you
Only because
Nobody can tell me any differently
I am feeling better
You hang on US
Love
Me

I'm starting the SAMe today, she got it in earlier than expected. Hard to believe a week has passed and not one fish lost in the great pond drain. Every morning I go out with my heart in my mouth dreading what I will find and there they all are. Koi sure are resilient!

Having had such a tearful week and been in increased pain, I avoided the gym until yesterday when I had a sudden energy burst. I made the most of it and enjoyed the feeling of pushing the limits to sweat. Paying for it this morning I am!

Nope, it has to be stored in the fridge, so with flying and getting through security I've made the decision to wait until I get home. Nothing is ever simple is it. Will start March 30th instead

Still feel in despair, got a bowel blockage out of nowhere as well to top off my feelings of unhappiness. I've been eating healthy, very healthy so there must have been too much fibre. I'm on the minimalist amount of pain relief so I knew that doesn't help with my depression but to get a blockage this close to going away, it's just not fair.

Home from our 7 night cruise, cried as we cruised out of the harbour, last time there was with my dearly loved father as we had a family cruise from Perth to Sydney. Probably the last time all the family were together as the next time was for dads funeral. Anyway, I think I managed to cry every day, sometimes feeling overwhelmed with tears. I just feel so lonely. I'm crying now as I type this for heaven sake! I'm starting on the SAMe today, couldn't take it away with me as it has to be refrigerated. Missed my NT contacts while on board the cruise, funny how little things can be soothing, NT offers lots of soothing support.

Pam,

Welcome back home.

It certainly can be difficult when we are reminded of these times we have spent with lost loved ones. I hope you were still able to enjoy some of your holiday even though some of these memories were brought back upon you.

Hi Pam,
I am so sorry to hear the cruise was a teary one and you are feeling so lonely.
I feel so bad....just want to fly down there and give you a big hug and girls day out just talkin' and laughin'.

The one and only cruise I ever took was when my father was dying from cancer and he loved to travel so we took him on one last cruise from Boston to Bermuda. That was 9 yrs ago and I still can't take even think about another cruise because it makes me sad, so you are definitely not alone in your emotions. (He was so cute, he bought all news clothes and had them all organized by outfit. He was so sick that he stayed in his cabin/balcony all day and only came out of room, via wheelchair for dinner and the show every night. I know it was very hard for him and took a huge toll but he did it for my Mom. He was a sweetheart. Bought her flowers all the time, right until the end, 60+ years. of marriage). Well Pam, at least we had great Dads and fond, loving memories of them. I always consider that a real gift because I was blessed with a great father.

I am surprised to hear your SamE has to be refrigerated. I have taken it a long time and never heard of that. The only factor I have heard is that they stay most stable/freshest in the individual bubble/foil type packs.

Can't I get them for you here in the states and ship them to you?
Have you tried Vitacost or Iherb to see if they ship to Aus?

Let us know how they work. Best of luck.
Love ya, D.

Early days with the SAMe but think it might be helping. Don't seem to be as tearful since starting it on Sunday but no energy to go to work. Made it to the office yesterday and just changed today to Friday instead. Nothing in the energy tank!
Had the family over for roast dinner on Sunday so did the big full clean in advance, you know the moving of the furniture, the full vacuum, dust and mop. House looked great after and even though I was in pain from doing it I felt good to have a clean home once again. If only I could muster the energy to clean like that every week.

You are feeling a bit better
Hoping will continue to ease up even more
Please be careful
I know how good it Feels when you get to do
a job thoroughly
Take good care of you
Sit and enjoy until the next burst
comes to pick you up
Staying active even if its cleaning house
Is refreshing
Be well
Take care
May your spirits continue to be uplifted
Love
Me

On Saturday I cleaned the house to an inch within its life... You know what I mean. DB who was supposed to help went to the gym, popped in to place a bet, went to the hardware shop etc etc, gone for 3 or more hours. Comes back and yes I'm on a slow simmer of annoyance but I bite my tongue and say little. He badgers me with wanting to talk about his new purchase from hardware, I'm tired, in severe pain and tbh not in a good mood, I am trying to cool myself down and regain my equilibrium. His words filter through my pattern of thoughts... Went to Bunnings hardware and bought an Ozito - specifically asked the girl behind the counter to test if she found it light to handle, it's an outdoor blow vac, stipulates it has to be light so my wife can use it to. "So I can use it to" are you kidding me, I'm struggling with keeping the inside of the house clean let alone outside. I burst into tears and reiterated what I've long said, I can't do these things anymore, you all expect so much of me. I just don't understand why no-one gets it!