Awww PamelaJune.....I'm so sorry you are having to go through this but hoping the visit from the family will make you feel better. (so glad to hear about the hug and the I Love You). Sometimes that's all any of us can do for loved ones.

Sounds like your cousin and Aunty won't be a problem at all which is such a good thing. I don't mind people coming as long as they don't expect anything from me

I had my first colonoscopy at the end of 2014. And I agree that the prep was just horrible. I'd rather have had another chemo treatment than go through that ! Maybe by the next time I need it they will have come up with an easier way to do the prep.

The surprise party sounds just awesome and I hope all have a great time. Please share with us after it.

Take care my friend.

Debi

Debi, Pam,

Congratulations on your colonoscopies. I agree Prep not nice; but sure is worth the effort.

Unfortunately, I waited until I was impacted from opioid meds; then it became an ER emergency to get cleaned out. While there finally agreed to my first colonoscopy.

Had I had a colonoscopy at the recommended age of 50, give or take a few years, I most likely would not have had to have rectum and couple of feet of colon removed.

I highly recommend them to anyone I have the opportunity to discuss the subject with.


Gerry

I gave up anti-depressants 12 months ago and nothing has changed. I'm still shedding tears and I'm just completely exhausted. Nothing lifts me, it's a daily struggle to get out the front door, actually it's a struggle to do anything. My depression I think has gotten worse. I'm functioning on autopilot. The chaplain at work stopped me yesterday to ask if I was ok, I said I can't go there, I'll just cry and as I uttered the words the tears flowed. I spent the next 60 minutes trying to pull myself together to leave his office and I'm thinking gosh now I can't even have someone ask after me without making a fool of myself. I don't mean fool in the usual sense, just you know the drained mature woman look who has just spent the last hour sobbing, her eyes are puffy, makeup smeared and now she needs to try and finish out her work day and it's not even 11am.

Hi PamelaJune

Sorry to read of no improvement after 12 mths. Have you considered getting an endocrine check up - Long term use (and subsequent stopping), of AD's can have an effect on the normal functioning of the HPA Axis (Hypothalamus/Pituitary/Adrenal). The never ending tears and continued exhaustion could be a symptom of this.

Hang in there and all the best for finding some solutions.

Pamela, I think that bluesfan has offered you a great idea.

Thank you Bluesfan, I'm going to make an appt to see my GP this week for referral to an endocrinologist.

Hello PamelaJune: I simply wanted to leave a brief note wishing you the best with regard to your ongoing struggle against depression & your appointment with your GP.

I've struggled with depression as well as anxiety plus a few other things for many years. I'm also no longer on antidepressants, or any other medications for that matter. I'm an older person though & no longer employed. I'm married. But otherwise I lead a pretty-much solitary lifestyle. And within the small world that I inhabit, I get along pretty well day-to-day. I do have a psychiatrist. I continue to see him periodically just to keep my foot in the door, so to speak, in case I require his services at some later date. He had been helpful to me in the past.

I send hugs your way with the hope that you will be able to find deep peace within...

My dog is with God
He is gone
Can't stop
It hurts touch
Me

Eva I'm so sorry, I know how much you loved him. Dogs give us unconditional love and we treasure the joy they bring to our lives. Rip little man xxx

I'm having blood tests again this morning. GP didn't think it worth referring me to an endocrinologist, she wants to put me back on anti depressants. It's a little over a year since I stopped them and I don't want to restart. The tears still fall daily & at times I'm completely overwhelmed to the verge of sobbing. I'm sure this is not normal. I have no energy, things that used to interest me I can't really gather the "oomph" to pursue. Even reading a book, once I was a voracious reader, now I can't concentrate long enough to enjoy the page I'm reading let alone the whole book. The TV is frozen more often than not, I can be watching a program and I freeze it because I know I'm just not taking in what I'm watching. I walk from one room to another and can't for the life of me recall why I went there. And I'm tired, so so tired all the time.