It has been too long since I have last posted on here. I am still struggling to pull myself together again. My psychologist claims she can see a difference since my first appointment with her, but I told her that I do not see it myself. Perhaps it is just me. I know that seeing an improvement in mood can be difficult to see in yourself.

My PM and psychologist have raised my Effexor up to near the maximum that I can take. If there is a difference, I do not know if it would be from the Effexor, from a reduction in the amount of stress and problems at home, or a little of both.

I have been spending a lot more time up at my parents place lately. Up here at least every other weekend. This time, I have been here since Thursday, and will be heading back to my sister's house again tomorrow afternoon. We are still unsure of where everyone is planning on sleeping now that my niece is back home from school. As spring moves on and summer comes, my mom and I plan on spending most of the time up here. The couple of days a month that we will be down state, I am sure things will work themselves out.

I did have two enjoyable days for a change. My parents invited a couple of their long time friends over to visit for the weekend. I have not seen them in nearly 8 years. They have a daughter just a few years younger than I that became a good friend of my own growing up. It was nice to hear that she is doing well with two children of her own. Just catching up and hearing all the things happening in their lives made the weekend enjoyable.

Although I have no intention of going back to my husband, I do miss the good things about him that show up from time to time. Hopefully we can still keep a friendship together. I am upset that I have had to leave my little girl, an absolutely sweetheart of a dog that I rescued 9 years ago, but she and my sisters dog do not get along very well.