Ha! Watched part 3 last night and it was one of the most poorly made films I've ever seen in my life! Laughably bad though, so at least I can laugh about it, but never again.

In case you missed it, my latest update.

Omg! I'm so stressed I forgot I already checked Twitter today and logged in again! :P

But we got taxes done.

Now I'm having lunch and then debating what exactly to cook. I could do the long meal, or I could do the easy one. Long one might yield more meals, but I still have other stuff do do and I'm tired and tense. I dunno. Might actually be worth it if I take the easy route this time, for my mental health sake. Speaking of, I think I'm going to take a break from another forum, except for one or two threads. Unless I get bored, of course, but I'll try to stick to game threads in that case.

Well, lunch is almost done so ttyl!

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If you only knew how much I appreciate your posts. I am going through a very difficult time at the moment. Please forgive me & know I regard you as very special. God bless you! :grouphug: :hug: :circlelove:

Ok, finally all caught up! I'm going to go try to motivate myself to workout now and then hopefully finish what I started yesterday with hubby. But if we are both too tired, well that could suck. I need some hubby time!

Oh, if you missed my journal post, I'm upset that my GP appointment got canceled because of Covid 19. Damn this stupid crap! But trying to move on from that and just enjoy the fun things in life. :) watch some fun or funny shows or videos and do my workout...will try to make the latter fun. Maybe black tea will give me the boost I need. :D

Not my best, but sharing it anyway! Lol hugs!

Well, the appointment is back on, but it's via an online site and it's because my GP wants to discuss my mood issues I've been having lately (I messaged him early this morning that I was feeling very hypomanic and hadn't slept more than 2 hours) Hopefully that will all work out. It's on Friday.

Did my workout and did the stuff with hubby. It was kinda crazy-i upped the intensity on my workout and had too much energy for hubby lol wore him out! ;)

Napped a couple of hours today, been doing some laundry. Still need to do food, but I just wanna relax and watch House. :P

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Absolutely, so much stuff! It's just too much! With everything else! Sometimes we have to find & discover ourselves. Each of of us is unique & has a purpose, whether it is clear to us or not. You are you, & nobody can be you but you.

Hugs WL!

As I said in B&B thread, getting a late start today, but slept better even if not perfectly yet. I noticed you reacted to my journal posts yesterday so I won't elaborate, but I'll still try checking in here when I can.

Movie was fun last night. Hehe Hubby still suffered through it, but at least he was all joking and teasing about it this time. I love him so much right now! I don't always feel so fondly about him, but he has his moments and thank God for that because it makes it all worth it! :inlove:

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So today I was feeling the euphoria again. It was a beautiful day! Nice and toasty in the porch room, but i was all dressed in my sweats, so I took my excitable walk outside and did my walk there today. (20minutes maybe. a little short, but i had to get to work)
Yeah, I was twirling my hair and basking in the sun and the memories of the pleasant night I had giggling with my hubby watching the movie the night before...

and all that ended now as I burnt the dinner veggies...they were still edible, but he was mad because I was online whilst cooking them and he keeps blaming it as a distraction and yelled "get off that internet"...so I might just have to do that if he persists...

sigh!

oh but wait! I'm starting to jot down writing ideas for this writing challenge I'm doing next month. there's a group that I chat with for support and encouragement during the process and I'm in charge of it (well, the heavy lifting is done now, but I still like to be the primary cheerleader). Anyhoo...just trying to think of things I can do offline. sigh! but writing hurts my hand and I can't possibly keep up with the thoughts in my head... I need a typewriter! lol

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Just hanging in there. Hope you & everybody are ok. :grouphug:

I'm feeling the dip tonight. (full post in journal) I started documenting my hypomanic phase on Monday, but it's possible I was already starting it sooner (erm, except that Sunday I was really depressed-like...or but I just read that you could be depressed and still have energy...I was napping all day, but that's mostly because I just wanted to shut out the world...and I was feeling better last week and stuff)...I guess I'm just wondering if I'm still in it, and did I start it sooner, and/or if I'm dipping...guess it's a little early to tell since I could just be tired from the time of night.

hey, @waking light do you mind me asking, do you have bipolar or bipolar2? I thought I was getting this impression with some of the stuff I was reading, but I could be wrong. You can PM me if you need to, or not answer at all if you don't want to. Hugs!

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Doing ok at the moment. I am not bipolar. I am probably schizoaffective, depressive type, though not officially diagnosed. I'm not presently in therapy or taking medication. Too afraid. God bless you!

GP televisit tomorrow afternoon. I'm nervous about it, but hoping it goes well and I can settle some of these issues for the record and address the extra stress from this virus bs/hubby working from home and added responsibilities there. Sigh! I'm tired! :P

Best!

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On tv they said we're in the eye of the storm. I think that means we should be moving out of it next. I decided to feel encouraged by that, like seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. We're going to be ok. :grouphug: :)

You mean about the virus, WL?? That would be awesome! But I'm not getting ahead of myself with excitement.

GP appointment went well. I've a new prescription, gabapentin to support sleep and to be an alternative for the Clonazepam (which was for my anxiety). I didn't sound hypomanic to him even with everything I described. It's fine by me though. That means I get to enjoy these nice feelings and not gain weight on antipsychotics. Obviously this will continue to be monitored, but since I don't seem to be reckless, I seem to be doing fine. I am highly advised to get that strict bedtime though, 12:30-1am is fine, but that will mean I'll need to settle sooner. I also asked about a gas remedy (been burping regularly every night) and was suggested some digest gold from Amazon and/or ACV. Think that's the summary! Oh, and I slept great last night 1amish to 9amish. I feel great! ...ok, I feel good, not "high" like the other day, ahh but the day is still young. lol ;)
Thanks everyone for reading AND listening and helping me through my journey. Much love!

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Glad to hear things are a bit better. That's like the light at the end of the tunnel just got a little bigger. :grouphug: :hug:

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Yesterday I went to the market for a few things, first time in several days so was a little nervous, & I was surprised to find the shelves pretty well stocked. I couldn't get all the things I wanted, but did better than I expected. Anyway, that kind of lifted my spirits. I felt a ray of hope. And as they say, little things mean a lot. I've been depressed lately, so that ray of hope is important. I'm wishing you a good day today!! :grouphug: :hug: :circlelove:

Hugs!!

Been posting in my journal again today. More marital stuff. It's calm, but there are still issues that will probably just keep building until both of us grow up. I dunno. Bleh! I feel like listening to some music now! I was feeling like a nap, but maybe music...but I am kinda tired of holding this tablet and don't feel like getting on the PC and my mp3 is getting over listened too (getting tired), so im not sure what ill do tbh...nap is sounding good again. Lol

Oh that music thing with Elton John is on tv right now, but I'm not sure it's really my style. Hmm...

Nancy Drew is on tonight!

I'm not feeling very happy tonight. :(