This is my first time posting in this group as I am usually in another but I honestly don't know what on earth is wrong with me.


I am afraid I was being too chatty with a member and was scolded for getting off topic and it really hurt my feelings and I have been so sad ever since.


I know I was guilty and the post wasn't meant to be hurtful and apparently no one was really mad at me ( I hope) but I just felt so bad about it and can't get it out of my head!!


It was such a minor thing but it just upset me so terribly and that is not normal.

It seems that some of the people are so friendly with each other and everyone is just so happy and chatting back and forth and I just don't fit in at all.

Is that what depression is; when you feel like a square peg? I guess it's like looking out a window at others having a good time and you aren't invited to play?

Depression is a thousand different things to a thousand different people. I don't think that any two of them are exactly alike. As far as being hurt so easily, that is something that I've experienced, too. You shouldn't feel bad or guilty about it. Some people are more empathic than others are, and they feel the emotions in words much more profoundly. Unfortunately I've never found anything that would help it, except to harden your heart, which I will never do. Feel blessed that you are such a caring person. That makes you rare and special. But don't try to over-apologize for every little thing. That only stirs up feelings. I hope that tomorrow you feel much better, and that "little thing" doesn't bother you anymore.

Idealist

ahhh, Janie... I totally understand.

my neuro called that "emotional lability"

but it's more like a LIABILITY sometimes...

it means that my emotions can sometimes be more, er, um, emotional.

and it can be a symptom of MS.

so, I try to take all my extravagant emotions with a grain (a rather LARGE grain!) of salt, and not sweat the small stuff.



my motto: "Fake it 'til ya make it!"

Jane there's nothing wrong with you at all but I do understand where you're coming from. When my feelings are hurt I realize it's more to my sensitivity rather than from a deliberate slight. In reality I can only be hurt if I let myself be hurt. It all comes down to my own self-esteem which is not the best right now. But when I believe in myself no one can hurt me.

When my family died and I was alone for the first time in my life it was important for me to find just one person that understood. Many people thought they understood but they didn't. To absolutely have no one left in my family, no one I could call on the phone, no one with a family connection is a sad thing. When I finally found someone I thought who understood, she turned her back on me. But I have a good pdoc now and I wouldn't be writing this today without her and of course everyone here at NT.

Don't be so hard on yourself. You do fit in, you are not alone in your feelings.

Thank you for responding to my post. I guess I am just too sensitive.

I am coming back in my next life as a turtle with a hard shell but in the meantime I will try not to let things get to me.

I am noticing I have emotional highs and lows where I am really happy or really sad; there doesn't seem to be a middle ground anymore??

Guess I had better make another appointment with the Neurologist.

Thanks again.

I think there are different degrees of depression and some people that have it to the extent that some of us do don't seem to be as understood at times. I do believe that Idealist and BJ are right. I actually don't think it's us at times though. I believe like Idealist says there are people out there that aren't as empathic as others. They don't seem to know how to relate to people with depression or certain problems.

I use to feel like you and BJ do but my support system around here is the best. My whole Drs. office has stood by me for 17 years and kept their phone lines open to me as well as their hearts. As BJ says she as a good Dr. now that is trying to help her get through her hardest times.

When depression is really bad, I do believe we need help with Physchologist and other types of Drs. for mental disabilities.

You will find some great support around here. Always just keep it in the back of your head that it's not you, it's just that some people don't get it.

I am glad you found us and I hope you stick around.

Ada