I don't even remember if I have ever posted here but today I am just so weary and needed to say so.

I am lonely though my bf is here, but he spends 12-14 hours of his days at work. I have no social life. I am going through my days anymore frantically thinking of something to do that will not cost money. Sit in the park and read, yeah if I can ignore the nasty writing from the teens and young adults. I already wear out my welcome at the library. October I am taking a class in Photography, Learning To Use Your Digital Camera. That costs money but I have to do something and it is not much.

I feel like I have dropped into this hole and can't get back out again. I am still waiting on a stupid blood test to see if my AD can be raised back up.

My son's issues are weighing heavy on me. I can feel him slipping from me and it scares me. I just know that when he leaves me he will stop taking his meds regularly. He will go about his life not caring until it is too late. Just as he does now. I am so afraid for him.

My bf is leaving for work in the a.m and not coming home until Sunday night. I am heart broken. It was supposed to be a family camping trip for work, a yearly thing. They changed the location to the next state over and made it mandatory for assistant managers to be there. Of course we can't go because our car won't make it that far and we could never afford the gas. We were all looking forward to the camping trip.

I am sorry, is minimal in comparison but I hurt and am miserable and can't remember a day without tears.

Awwwww, ((((Christina)))), I hope the sun shines for you tomorrow.

Good Lord Rochelle where the heck is that sun. It has been raining here for 4 days.

Son has moved in with grandmother, again.

BF is home from trip. I survived, actually he works so much and often falls asleep on the couch so really it was like he never left lol. Well except for the nice new library bag he brought me.

Oh Rochelle I just saw the sun come out for a second there.

Sorry (((Christina))). I hope next time the sun makes an appearance, it will dry your teardrops and then linge for a good long time.