[wishfulthinking]

I had such a rough day today. I knew I just wanted to stay in bed this morning. I should have listened to my body. Any way, I got out of bed and went to my therapy appointment and I have been having such a rough time lately. To add onto my stress my therapist doesn't want to help me any more so now I have to go find another therapist.

If that wasn't enough for today, I had went to the museum with my intro to Art class and I ended up there walking around for two hours. I have hurt my ankle like yesterday during Pilates. So now I am really sore from walking all day today like that. I am just in so much pain tonight, both physical and emotional! I wish I knew what to do. I feel so down!

[Julie]

Hi Wish, I'm sorry you're day didn't go so well today. Maybe a new therapist is what you need!

I hope tomorrow is better. Try to take it easy this weekend and stay off that ankle.

Hugs,

Julie

[sadeyesr4ever]

Wow Wish you did have a bad day today! I hope you will beable to find a therapist that you like and hope that you feel better soon. (((hugs)))

[moose53]

((((((Wishful)))))),

I'm so sorry you had a bad day. You're right -- you do need to listen to your body. I used to call those "mental health" days. When you're in the midst of therapy, sometimes life gets in the way. You really do have to take a break and slow down sometimes.

I hope you were able to take a nice warm bath tonight and lay down with a good book or movie and get your body into a more relaxed state.

The only one that's gonna really take care of us the way that we need is our SELF. We really need to listen to those cues from the body that you're too tired or too sick or too overwhelmed. Those messages come to you for a reason.

Your therapist should stay with you until you hook up with someone. Has he/she offered to do that??

I know how hard it is to start all over again with a new therapist. I can't tell you how many times I went through that. Looking back, though, each time it was because I had gone as far as I could with that individual. The Universe really does guide our steps to where we need to go next.

There's nothing wrong with crying, Wishful. Tears are nature's way of getting pain and stress out of our bodies. I know sometimes you just want to "turn off the faucet". The tears will last as long as they need to. Give yourself permission to REALLY FEEL what's happening in your heart and in your mind and in your body. All those feelings are hard to cope with when you've been used to hiding your feelings or freezing yourself or numbing yourself. I know from experience, though, it's better TO FEEL than to be numb. Even pain and heartache and loss is better than the coldness of being numb or frozen.

Keep talking, sugar. And keep on coping. You've come a long way. You'll get to where you want to be before you know it. BIG HUGS.

Barb

[wishfulthinking]

Thanks for all the hugs and thoughts. I really do appreciate them. I am feeling a little better about things today. Last night I went to bed early and I found myself in a better place this morning. My mom called me this morning as well and I found out that my cats are all having kitties again. I just love my kitties. I miss them so much and I will get to see them in a few days! Yay!!

I am going to be going home for the holiday which I am really greatful for because I really do miss my parents and I miss all my cats. I miss my dog and my stuff. Especially my bed! LOL! I can't wait to go home. I just have to wait until Weds. I can do this. I am strong.

I am not angry or upset with my therapist for not wanting to help me any more. I realized that it is for the best. I do need more help but she cannot help me the way I need it. I am just a little sad because I really do like my therapist and I have grown attached to her. It's hard to let go of something that is good. I have learned so much from her and she has helped me so much.

Any way, thanks again every one and may you all have a great holiday!! *hugs*
Wishful

[Idealist]

(((Wishful))) I am glad you are feeling better! I hope the holiday spirit continues to cheer you up and on. I always have mixed feelings about the holidays these days, but for most part all the color and lights make me feel happier. Not to mention the holiday spirit of so many good people.