Hello everybody,

Im new to this forum and Im hoping being here can help me living...

Im from Mexico, so, I apologise for my english.

I have always been very depressed girl... My main problem is that I always feel guilty of everything that happens to me, like I deserve all the horrible things that happen in my life...

I suffer of scarring alopecia which made me terribly sad because everyday Im worried I will get completely bald...

I had wore glasses for 25 years, but last year I decided I wanted to do something for me, and got surgery to get rid of my glasses... Guess what, my surgery went out bad, and Im thinking about my eyes ALL day... I feel terribly guilty... like, why did I do this to my eyes ??? Im always going to be ugly and lonely, why did I do this ?? I want my glasses back...

I feel extremely depressed when thinking about my past...

I was taking fluoxetine everyday and it seemed to help, but I started to suffer of side effects and has to stop it...

Im feel tired all day... I just want to die... I wish I could kill myself right now, but at the same time, I start crying when I think I could die... Does that make sense !?

Any help will be greatly appreciated.

Thank you guys.