What's up people?

Feels good to "check in" here again. I'll TRY to keep it up.

Yeah, Pony ~ I just love to write! So, what do you plan to do after you get your English degree?

Renee ~ Have fun on your trip!

Resq ~ Everything O.K.? Kelly? How are you today?

Lots to do for me. Grocery shopping, a Target run, dance team practice. I want to get a ride on the recumbant bike in too. GOTTA do that.

Have a great day all. HUGS ~ Sly

Hi Sly! Wow, sounds like you had a busy day. I have been working on homework all day so that I don't have to do any during the week this week. Wednesday, I have an appointment in Ann Arbor so the wellness class is out for the week....which kinda sucks because it is only a 1 day a week class, and I have to miss it. Oh well, I guess life goes on. I have had terrible problems with my stomach since last winter, and I am finally getting in to a GI doc....It took a long time to find one that would accept medicaid, so that explains the delay. My mom is all moved into her new apt. but it doesn't feel like home yet. That is how it was for me when I moved into this apartment I have now. It is only a 1-bedroom so much smaller than the 2 bedroom......but I have gotten used to it now.
It seems like Laura and I probably need to do some time-management stuff, because I don't feel like I ever have time enough (or energy) to do the things I need to do. I am always doing homework, it seems.

Physically, I could be better. I feel run-down...and just fatigued....headache today too. It has been a week or so that I have felt like this. Perhaps its the routine of school getting to me because I am not used to doing that much during the day. For 3 years of my life, I have been fighting mental illness too severe to do anything but that....and now I am healthy for the most part (I still have my days) and it may take a bit to get back into the swing of life. Does anyone else find this? Just curious. I don't have much else to report, so I will just say that I hope everyone has a good night and week ahead!

Kelly

I am exhausted today. Worked another 12 hours with people snapping my head off everywhere I turn. I feel like a failure. Sometimes I feel like all I do is walk in circles. I still don't feel like a real nurse. I feel awful.

When i'm down and people snap at me... i feel raw. like my skin isn't enough to protect me.

i suppose in an ER ppl are more brusque due to time factors. snappy is a stone's throw from brusque. and some ppl let off steam that way to stay afloat themselves, at the cost of others. then there are just plain old snappy people. Those and the steam engines are the "its not about you" people. But they hurt just the same eh.

i understand feeling like a failure. Fwiw, i really admire you for even taking on such an endeavor - so faaaar from a failure. You sound in a tizzy and exhausted. Are 12 hour shifts frequent? I wonder if you have been able to bond with any other nurses, to see if others have been through this.

I've asked before I think, but... why this job or, specifically, in ER? Can you reduce your volunteer hours for now? My heart goes out to you.

Remember your health is even more important than your work, let alone the number of hours. PLEASE REST. Today, tomorrow, the day after, andthensome. Please take care of yourself! (Nurse yourself!)

hugs and a drop of lavender on each temple (relaxes)

~ waves ~

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I am so sorry that you are feeling this way.
I htink waves has addressed some real issues for you.
When I realized that I could not handle the stress of working for a health organization...I started my own foot care business.
As an RN...I am allowed to practice independantly.
Have had this business for about 10 years now.
If you wish to hear more about my business, PM me and I will fill you in.
I hated 12 hour shifts!!!!
too hard...too stressful for an ER.
Could you change areas?
I have heard fo many people thriving on the adrenaline rush of ER....
I am not one of them.
Take care and be safe
bizi