J, PLEASE try to calm down. You seem to be in Panic Mode.

I am only saying these things to you becasue I have been where your at myself. We can work ourselves up into a lather and Freak Out over things, I understand that, especially when you think there IS something terribly wrong with you and no one will believe you.

Anxiety can REALLY do a number on us.

Just think about how many complexities there are in the human body. If we are negative we worry and fret over how many things can go wrong. If we are Positive and optimistic we marvel at the wonder of it all and try to take care of ourselves. I spend so much time TRYING to do what will be good for my body. Exercise, eat healthy, get outside in the sun, take a good Multi-Vitamin, TRY not to dwell on bad things going on around me, rest and relax when I need to, take a walk just to clear my head sometimes.

You sound like you are lost in a world of turmoil and negativity. You NEED to calm down. Is there ANY chance at all you can do something NEW? Something you have never done before? Something you've always wanted to TRY or do but never got the chance? If you ADD something NEW to your life, something POSITIVE AND UPLIFTING you MIGHT start to feel better. If all your days and nights you are worrying about your health and what MIGHT happen 20 or 30 years from now then you are really wasting time you COULD be spending doing something you enjoy.

Is there some nice park somewhere close where you could go? Take a sandwich and maybe some fruit and something to drink. Bring a blanket and go have a picnic with your puppy. Get outside in the sun. Enjoy the birds singing. Look at the sky.

You may need to think about what I'm saying for a while until it sinks in. But the more negativity AROUND you the worse you feel.

I find that hanging around doctors all the time just keeps a person upset and worried about their health. Doctors are in the business of making people believe they are sick. That's how they earn their money.

Try to relax, Please.

Oh,no worries,I'm not panicing right now.I'm actually pretty calm right now for a change.I'm actually feeling a little better today,I think part of my panicing problem is cabin fever from not being able to get out and have fun hardly ever.My friend I went out with,yeah she's a Doctor but she's different than most doctors,she's cool,and when you see her in her normal clothes,you would'nt even guess that she's a Doctor.We had so much fun,she took me on a small shopping spree at Wally-World (Wal-mart),we call it wally-world,because when we go together we just have the most fun,and laugh our asses off the whole time,and goof off in there! I wasn't expecting the pain attack to hit while we were there,but I didn't let it ruin our fun! And she got the cutest little tank top for my puppy! It's so cute on him,I'll switch my avatar to the photo I took of him wearing it! lol................. [/COLOR]

Well that's certainly good to hear. I really hate to hear of people who let their emotions and fears take over their lives. And if you let it, it will.

I know there are times when I start to feel a bit scared and start to worry and obsess over the future. I have 30 years on you J so I think I understand how you feel. For 7 years, during my second marriage I was agoraphobic. I forced myself to go out once a week to go food shopping but no where else. No fun, no movies, no dancing, no beach, no church, no socializing, no family gatherings, NO NOTHING!! It took me a long time to get better and during that time I too obsessed about my health. Panic attacks were almost daily. Until I got SO sick of it I decided to TRY to venture out a little at a time. When I would start to feel something coming on I would retreat and go back home. But over time I would go a little futher and stay there a little longer. It took me a few years to get over it. But by then I had burned a lot of bridges. People thought I was anti social or I didn't like them, then the gossip started and many people who were once in my life were no longer there. I never told anyone what really was wrong.

What goes on in your head can affect your body. Even now when I get in a bad way in my head I have to force myself to DO SOMETHING. Anything that will get me off my bad and disturbing thoughts. Usually a long, hot shower, getting dressed, going out for a while, someplace that I enjoy, usually the lake or I look for rummage sales or I go to a thrift store and just look around. Usually I find some little thing that will brighten my day and lift my spirits a bit.

Funny thing about our minds J. They can only have One Thought at a time. If that thought is distressing it can make you upset and sick physically. So go do something else to get yourself out of it. If you do this enough it becomes second nature and you'll feel better more often.

Yeah,staying inside so much can really effect you,it does me,big time! Before I got this sick,I had a daily routine where I would go for a walk in the morning,and it was a specific walk,I mean the area I walked to,and then back around to my apartment.But during this walk,I could get my bills paid,pick up my prescriptions,grab a cappucino,maybe rent a couple movies,and back! And I was burning off weight at the same time,and getting the fresh morning air! It was just part of my day.
Then I got sick,and still tried to go for my walk,and slowly I wasn't physically able to do it anymore,and it just killed me mentally. Still to this day,If I get really upset,I'll try to do my walk to clear my head,and it will make me really sick,and sometimes I barely make it home.I've passed out before when I got in the door,almost before I got in.But it hasn't stopped me from trying again in the future.Even though I've failed each attempt and gotten sicker each time I tried,I still try again,because I have hope that one day I will make it!

One time I took Nico just 4-5 blocks for his first time long walk in the snow,and he loves the snow,and just as I was standing on a patch of ICE,he yanked so hard on that leash to get to a tree he saw,I went down,like a ton of bricks!lol.......but he ran to my rescue,and started licking my hands and everything,but as I layed there for 10 minutes not able to move.He still stayed right by my side.I finally got up,and barely made it home in excrutiating pain.But he still layed next to me in bed,and just comforted me.
Then I found out once I got checked out medically,I had fractured the vertabra(3) between my shoulder blades,and hurt my knee,and ended up in a knee brace,with a Hematoma right below my kneecap,and to the right.Plus I had a goosebump on my head,and I didn't even remember hitting my head.
But my Little Prince was there for me more than anybody.I couldn't be mad at him,he didn't know I was on Ice,he didn't even know what ice was.And he just had to pee on that tree! lol..........But he did end up not being able to go outside for a few days because of my injuries,but after like 3 day's I had the neighbor kid take him out,so he wouldn't feel like he was in trouble.But I still tried to walk again,before my injuries were even healed! lol..I'm very stubborn,when it comes to staying in bed.My definition of bedrest,is letting the bed get some rest,without being disturbed! LOL.....

Gee Whiz J. Maybe you NEED to find a Walking Buddy.

Watch out your window and see if you ever see another person just walking by FREQUENTLY. Not just anyone who is walking by. You MAY have to make this a QUEST for a while. OR just sit outside. Do you have a lawn chair? Just go sit out there, in the sun everyday for a while. Maybe there IS someone you don't even know yet who talks walks around where you live that you could strike up a conversation with. Don't just YELL "Hey, you want to walk with me?" You'll scare them off. Take it slow and don't chatter so much. Let THEM get a word in.

Tons of people my age,well mostly a little younger walk by my place,but thier BYU students!!(mormons)Plus they walk really fast,I think it's called speed walking.Thier all Mormons,I'm surrounded! The people in my apartment building that know me,don't walk anywhere,thier lazy! If they had to go somewhere that was 2-3 blocks from here,they'ld drive there! Seriously! Smiths(the grocery store,where we all get our prescriptions from) they even drive there to get a prescription filled,and it's only 4 blocks!
In fact I have to go there today,try to walk again,and hope I make it this time.Last time remember what happened,I was found sick in the bathroom,and some lady drove me home! I have to pick up a prescription! It's my mustle relaxant,so it's not something that can wait! wish me luck!

Well, I got into that "Mode" for a while. Running everywhere, falling down, smashing and breaking toes, scrapes, bruises all over me. I had to "SLOW DOWN"!!. I know you have a racing mind but if you don't slow your body down you hurt yourself. Doing everything fast, as fast as you're thinking, will get you no where. Slow it down J. Your breathing. TRY to focus on One thing at a Time and not the 20 things that need doing. I am doing this right now. Slowing down my thinking to ONE thing at a time. Sometimes I have to make a real effort to do this. I am focusing right now on going swimming. I will be leaving shortly and I am going to walk slower, take my time, I have 4 hours I can swim, there is no need to rush. Slow it down J.

Yeah,I see what you mean!lol....I ended up in the ER yesterday,instead of Smiths!lol.....It was that damn pain in my side.And the puking thing! I was there all day,it took them 4-5 tries to get my blood drawn,it sucked.I told them,just hit the neck,and save me the torture,and they just laughed!lol...I have to have a HIDA scan tomorrow on my Gallbladder,that's where they're aiming at,it looks like my friend may have been right! But I didn't get home from the ER until almost 6 PM,and I usually go to bad at noon or 1 PM,so I was exhausted! But tomorrows the day,and I'll soon find out,and I'm scared to,even though I want to get to the bottom of what's wrong so bad.I'm still scared about it.But I'm trying to rest,and stay calm.Taking your advice!....I think I'll take a hot bath tonight,to help me relax!Thanks for always being here!

the pain spells that you have may be soleely related to gallbladder issues? They seemt o hit you and then you have side pain. Maybe you don't have any pain from COPD. I beleive that shortness of breath can be a symptom of a number of illnesses unrelated to lungs.

Also the mormons thing is too funny. I tell you, you gave me a real good laugh! i would also consider taking up a mormon walking buddy despite the (mormonism), as a walking buddy is the primary thing you may be needing.

I actually scare most Mormons,because I'm like the KKK to mormons,whenever I see someone do something stupid,or like run a stop sign,or stop when there isn't one,and they just assume it's a four way stop,I forget that the people next to me are Mormons,and I just blurt out,those stupid ****ing mormons! Next thing I know,the people that were next to me,are gone! Since I'm from San Diego,I'm not used to being around them so much,so usually when I react like that,I hear others laugh,or actually agree with me.I think I'm just allergic to them,and that if I get away from Utah,I'll get better! The BEACH shall set you free!