[Ellie]

My heart has been pounding for the past few days, I mean it's to the point it's distracting me. It doesn't seem to be any more rapid than usual, but my heartrate tends to randomly jump from the mid 70's up to the 150ish range. That is normal for me, since I'm not normal.

However, this is growing annoying. At night time when I lay down I feel kind of short of breath, but I know I'm not. I can usually tell when I have anxiety and I've been fairly calm and I am very good at self relaxation techniques. No matter what I do, this will not die down.

Things I've noted since this began:

I've been a bit more off balance than normal, feeling shaky but not too bad.

I've noticed more jumps and declines in my heart rate than usual.

My right big toe keeps turning purple. Yes, just one toe. I have no clue what is up with it, but it looks like I smooshed it, but I didn't.

I've been ridiculously thirsty. I normally stick to juice or coffee, but I've been drinking everything in sight. I hate soda and have been drinking a lot in hopes to quench my thirst. I tried water, soda, juice, etc. Nothing seems to get it to go away.

I keep waking up hot and then waking up cold. It's like being pregnant again.

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On the bright side, this has good timing since I go Thursday for an Echocardiogram which was scheduled for something else not related to this (rapid heart rate, low blood pressure concerned my Epileptologist).

I've been going through a big move, and recently lost a friend. But even with all of that going on, I've been in better spirits than I had expected to me. When I have anxiety, it feels much different. My heart pounding is so loud it's keeping me awake.

My last self-check was 98BPM although I'm not really good at testing myself, so give or take 10. I lose count a lot. It's more of a very hard beat, like I can see my shirt move kind of hard.

Any feedback would be appreciated, I'm open to tips to relax incase maybe I'm stressed and not realizing it.

Thanks

-Ellie