PamelaJune -- I had a malignant tumor removed from my brain in 2005 and had to have MRIs every 3 months for a year, then they changed to every 6 months, (another surgery) then every 12 months. May 2018 the hospital finally changed it to every 24 months for the rest of my life. Whew.
It is to watch for any return of the tumor.

I’ve been to chicken to go get my mylogram results and I’ve been extra busy with work travelling to Vic, SA and NT. I went to my GP Weds hoping she had a copy of the report but no such luck.

Yesterday something terrible happened. I had to have our 2 dogs Bono and Bronson put to sleep. Bronson had cancer and somehow Bono fractured his spine on Thursday while I was in work. I spent the night with him on the floor and he finally collapsed onto my chest and I could ease him to the floor. At that stage I knew something was wrong but not what. I couldn’t pick him up so had to wait for the vet to come to me. When she did, she said the kindest thing is to let him go, he’s nearly 14 & she looked at Bronson and said the same for him. So my boys who arrived together 13years ago and have been my stalwart companions have crossed the rainbow bridge. I’m beyond devastated can’t speak to anyone and keep saying to myself I want them back. Got DB home as they were his dogs first. He too is heartbroken.

Pam, you have my deepest sympathy.

Losing much-loved pets is always a hard thing.

Pam -- I'm so sorry - so very sorry.

I’m so tired I struggle to find the energy to write on the board. I check in regularly. I have so much I want to say, I just can’t. I miss my NT friends and the spiritual lift me up you give, selfish I know.

I’ve found me, I’m tired, I’m sad and I’m still the one who goes out of her way to make everyone else feel good about themselves. I make my way through each day in the manner of a worn down warrior. I smile & I fake it, all in the hope that one day I’ll make it.

I don’t think I can do this much more. Happy Easter to those who believe, happy holiday to those that don’t.

Pam, I am still here and still care about you.

For me Easter is a time for quiet self-reflection.

You are a good person who I admire. I hope that self-reflection over Easter will help you with that.

If I don’t laugh I’ll cry. I’ve got Shingles. Had to go to emergency GP today, he said it’s severe, up there with the worst he’s seen. Oh well it explains the fatigue and extra pain... excruciating and sleepless nights. I’m so over it all. Have to travel to Melbourne next week, hope I’m well enough to endure the flight there and back. Then Adelaide & Darwin the following week, and same again the week later.

Pam, that does not sound like fun; I hope that you recover from your shingles soon.

Pam; so sorry to learn on top of everything else; Shingles!!!!!!!

With Singles; travel would not be good for you or the possibility of contagious. That might help you have a good reason to postpone travels.

Think of you often. Like you check in occasionally.

Gerry