Pam -- I'm so sorry - so very sorry.

I’m so tired I struggle to find the energy to write on the board. I check in regularly. I have so much I want to say, I just can’t. I miss my NT friends and the spiritual lift me up you give, selfish I know.

I’ve found me, I’m tired, I’m sad and I’m still the one who goes out of her way to make everyone else feel good about themselves. I make my way through each day in the manner of a worn down warrior. I smile & I fake it, all in the hope that one day I’ll make it.

I don’t think I can do this much more. Happy Easter to those who believe, happy holiday to those that don’t.

Pam, I am still here and still care about you.

For me Easter is a time for quiet self-reflection.

You are a good person who I admire. I hope that self-reflection over Easter will help you with that.

If I don’t laugh I’ll cry. I’ve got Shingles. Had to go to emergency GP today, he said it’s severe, up there with the worst he’s seen. Oh well it explains the fatigue and extra pain... excruciating and sleepless nights. I’m so over it all. Have to travel to Melbourne next week, hope I’m well enough to endure the flight there and back. Then Adelaide & Darwin the following week, and same again the week later.

Pam, that does not sound like fun; I hope that you recover from your shingles soon.

Pam; so sorry to learn on top of everything else; Shingles!!!!!!!

With Singles; travel would not be good for you or the possibility of contagious. That might help you have a good reason to postpone travels.

Think of you often. Like you check in occasionally.

Gerry

Had Colonoscopy & Endoscopy on Monday, polyps removed, follow up in 5yrs, an improvement on the last 3yrs ago. Now have gastritis - explains the constant gnawing feeling. Still get the bowel obstructions but work hard on not ending up in emergency...

Work is draining, I need a break. DB & I are reconciled, it’s been a long trek. In the main, I’m content. My dogs are still missed every day, their passing was the conduit for DB and I to reconnect.

Pam, I think that 5 years is an improvement.

That is good that you and DB are reconciled.

Pam,
I'm glad you had the Colonoscopy. I waited too many years to have my first Colonoscopy. That's how my rectal cancer was found.

I was sure I didn't need a Colonoscopy until I got so backed up; couldn't have BM so went to emergency where I was admitted. Was talked into doing a Colonoscopy while in hospital. Finally said "okay". Can't recommend enough after 50/60 yrs. old "do it" whether you think you need it or not.

Good to learn you and DB are reconciled.

Gerry