i just want to die

GladysD · 09-05-2008, 12:54 PM

As far as Borderline Personality Disorder is concerned.....DBT has been proven as a much better therapy than hypnotherapy!

Something you might want to consider.

I see you are spending huge amounts of $$$ on hypnotherapy, and with borderline it's not showing to be as effective. Sometimes it makes your progress back-track. Borderline is due to something traumatic in early childhood(along with some type of genetic physical component, possibly). Whether it be physical abuse of some sort or just witnessing some traumatic episodes between your parents, etc.

What happens is that BPD's in stressful circumstances sometimes 'regress' emotionally to that 'child-like' place where things are black/white---I'm just simply stating to help you understand what you are up against.

Someone who specializes in DBT---will help you stop letting your emotions control you, so that you can function better with your life.

Don't beat yourself up over the other stuff. Just realize that after using for numerous years, things can occur in your body, that suddenly there is a toxic reaction. They call this Tardive Dyskinesia. This is something that can happen with any medication after sustained usage through the years. If you view mj as a med...then this is something to consider.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tardive_dyskinesia

Best of Luck with schooling!!!

GladysD · 09-05-2008, 12:58 PM

Prettyinpink...

Back to the teen suicides. The warning labels on AD's now come with the warning that these things can occur in users under 25.

With those warnings, those over 25 don't seem to be at such an elevated risk.

And anti-anxiety pill that starts with L? Is it Lamictal, by any chance? I hear that's pretty good for all that you've got going on with you....

pian · 09-09-2008, 02:24 AM

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Before i start this thread i have a question about tremors. I did acupucture, and hypnotherapy, and while i was doing this my eyes or veinson my fore head kept flicking , does anyone know what this is?

I am not writing this for people to feel sorry for me , actuuly i am using every bit of energy i have left on this thread.

I feel like i want to die, every day, every second, I just can't take it anymore.

I have been diaignosed with personality disorder, borderline A.D.D, depression. I have learning disablities , i think i have OCD, maybe a bit of scitzo, & body dismorfic. i think i may even have abit of autism. No disrespect but don't leave me a message and say i don't have these things if you only have alittle in site on it.

I am fixated on the brain, mental health, enviromental issues.

I don't know who i am , i don't know who i am , i don't know who i am AND IT DRIVES ME CRAZY CRAZY CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have a son out here that i have'nt seen in 3 years, due to my mental health,i think i am alor more mature, and less implussive than what i use to be. He is 6 years old. My mom has him . If it was'nt for hi i would DEFINATLEY be dead righ now

I don't trust anyone , i don't trust tthem becasue neurologiclly i don't know know whats going with me so how the hell is someone supose to help me.

I am trying to save $8000 to see Dr. Frank Lawlis , he's the neurologist from the Dr. Phil show. He has a clinic in Dallas Texas . Him and about 4-5 other doctors work with you . I am fixated on Dr. Phil and have been tyring toget on his show. I don' trust anyone but him, and don't try and incourage me to open up and trust other peopel cuzi can't. I have renting some rooms outin my home to save money to see him, but ever since i have been doing that for 8months now i can't seem to save because i have been spending it on toher things like hypnotherapy, clothes, entertainment puposes, acupucture, thing for my home ect. I am losing hope rapidley.

I have a very short intension spand so doing work or reading on the computer is very hard for me. I am adicted to pot, and can't stop for anything. I am not into the whole N/A thing . I can't talk to people that are too over obssesed with anything, weither it be n/a church whatever. Sorry but i don't want to hear 80% of your conversatio to do with god, god, god, N/a, N/A, N/A.

I get very dizzy, nausa( gaggy), and crazy racing thought when i try and push tthrough my fears or motivation. I won't take medication because i have heard way too may horror stories about it. I don't know whats true anymore so i just don't do anything. I have extrem short term memory . I'll writ more latter but i feel a break down about to happen.

Don't lose hope. Allow me to help you and share what I learned from reading the 3rd Serving of the Chicken Soup for the Soul. I'm not usually into reading books, but since my accident last Sep 6, 2003 which left me deaf, disabled, plus I couldn't control my hands, I was forced to read books since I couldn't appreciate watching TV as I'm deaf. I learned a valuable lesson from reading the book that may change your life. That it's all a matter of perspective. That is, to always think positive, look at the bright side. So I said to myself, I may be deaf, but I'm not blind.
You can also think that way.

pian · 09-10-2008, 08:29 PM

Also in the 3rd Serving. A man surpassed the amateur national and international records for pole vaulting considering he's blind. There was a man who met 2 accidents within 4 years. The first one burned 70% of his body. The second one turned him into a quadruplegic. But you would admire his fighting spirit since inspite of them, he ran for office under the slogan 'Not just another pretty face.' I remember what he said, 'Before I could do 10,000 things. Now I could do 9,000. It's not so bad.' I likewise remember an article from this book where the man had an accident which turned him into a quadriplegic. I would distinctly remember what his mother said to him upon her visit to the hospital: ‘The difficult takes time. The impossible takes a little longer.’. That has become his mantra and he accomplished a lot.
Or the book entitled ‘Hope Grows in Winter’ where a Pastor acquired a mysterious disease which turned out to be AIDS. Upon contemplating how he got the disease, he remembered where he tried to save people from an accident and suffered a cut in the process. It turned out that the people he was trying to save were drug addicts who were dead. But he ended the article with Hope. I learned from reading that book that Hope is a Noun.
There was also an article about the designers of the Bronx Bridge (I think) whose father and son both met an accident and left the son with only his eyelids moving. Of course people would think that the project was doomed. But thru blinking the son was able to communicate and the bridge eventually built. A similar article was sent by my sister. This time the victim can only blink an eyelid but he was able to make that article. I also remember what Stephen Covey said, 90% of things you can control, 10% of things you cannot control. He was referring mainly to man’s temper. But I thought prayerwise, you usually pray for things you cannot control, while you make promises to God for things you can control.
I'm not trying to sell books here. I just want to share with all of you the things I learned.
Thanks Gladys for the appreciation.

prettynpinkk · 09-16-2008, 07:22 PM

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Originally Posted by pian

Also in the 3rd Serving. A man surpassed the amateur national and international records for pole vaulting considering he's blind. There was a man who met 2 accidents within 4 years. The first one burned 70% of his body. The second one turned him into a quadruplegic. But you would admire his fighting spirit since inspite of them, he ran for office under the slogan 'Not just another pretty face.' I remember what he said, 'Before I could do 10,000 things. Now I could do 9,000. It's not so bad.' I likewise remember an article from this book where the man had an accident which turned him into a quadriplegic. I would distinctly remember what his mother said to him upon her visit to the hospital: ‘The difficult takes time. The impossible takes a little longer.’. That has become his mantra and he accomplished a lot.
Or the book entitled ‘Hope Grows in Winter’ where a Pastor acquired a mysterious disease which turned out to be AIDS. Upon contemplating how he got the disease, he remembered where he tried to save people from an accident and suffered a cut in the process. It turned out that the people he was trying to save were drug addicts who were dead. But he ended the article with Hope. I learned from reading that book that Hope is a Noun.
There was also an article about the designers of the Bronx Bridge (I think) whose father and son both met an accident and left the son with only his eyelids moving. Of course people would think that the project was doomed. But thru blinking the son was able to communicate and the bridge eventually built. A similar article was sent by my sister. This time the victim can only blink an eyelid but he was able to make that article. I also remember what Stephen Covey said, 90% of things you can control, 10% of things you cannot control. He was referring mainly to man’s temper. But I thought prayerwise, you usually pray for things you cannot control, while you make promises to God for things you can control.
I'm not trying to sell books here. I just want to share with all of you the things I learned.
Thanks Gladys for the appreciation.

HI, there

I was want to thank you so much for inspiring me to stay strong, i feel almost likes it's my duty after hearing your story.

I just want to write and say i have not forgot about you, just been under the weather latley. I will post more when i feel better.

Thank you so much

pian · 09-16-2008, 09:36 PM

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Originally Posted by prettynpinkk

HI, there

I was want to thank you so much for inspiring me to stay strong, i feel almost likes it's my duty after hearing your story.

I just want to write and say i have not forgot about you, just been under the weather latley. I will post more when i feel better.

Thank you so much

Good to know that.
I just feel it's my duty to inspire people, because what I learned is truly inspiring.

prettynpinkk · 09-23-2008, 10:45 AM

Hello, I have to say you are very right when it comes to me obssessing about my mental health. You seem very intelligent person. In saying that to a person that is feeling suisidal thoughts and is overwhelmed i would leave the whole " i got a headache thing" to yourself. Don't get me wrong i mean no disrespect , i do like a person who is blunt , and LITTLE harsh, but your reply was very rude, inconsiderate, and thoughtless. If i did not have my son to consider your message would proberly take alot of peole over the edge if they were in my shoes.

Try and be a little more considerate of other people and how they are feeling.

Best Wishs

P.s I do belive alot o people on here don't have the key answers but have alot of knowledge and puzzle pieces that can help each other reach our goal of self awareness.

pian · 09-23-2008, 07:13 PM

I knew your reply would evoke that kind of reaction from PrettyinPink. The brain is a very complex organ. I believe harboring suicidal thoughts is a mental imbalance which needs motivation and support more than anything else. This person needs understanding, not condemnation.

GladysD · 09-24-2008, 06:53 AM

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I knew your reply would evoke that kind of reaction from PrettyinPink. The brain is a very complex organ. I believe harboring suicidal thoughts is a mental imbalance which needs motivation and support more than anything else. This person needs understanding, not condemnation.

Plus, compassion and support from peers is very important for someone with a personality disorder. The brain is most definitely a very complex organ. And with PD's emotions are what rule the mind.

Chemar · 09-24-2008, 11:59 AM

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