[pud's friend]

I think I've reached the lowest point of my Beta experience and I'm weighing up the pros and cons of ending our bitter relationship.

On the up side, I'm confident (as much as I can be) that it is helping me.

On the down side, even after nine months, the side effects are actually getting worse. I wake up racked with flu symptoms and last night was the worst for ages. My joints are burning, I can't move off the bed, I'm shaking, shivering, freezing cold (it's 20 degrees overnight (70 in old money)), and pain killers don't seem to touch it.

I'm starting to hate the whole experience. I started taking it at midday since I was awake through it anyway, I may as well take it and be done with it then sleep off the 'hangover' but all that seemed to do was extend my 'hangover' (which is also quite bad) to the next day too.

Any suggestions how I can get my life back? I feel like I'm a slave to the jab. My only good time is the hours/day before my jab. Other than that, I'm either in pain or feeling dizzy and lethargic. I'm thinking it shouldn't be this hard and maybe I need to look at something else.

I think I've had enough.